240409 振り返ればヒモ生活

というタイトルにしたけど
案外ヒモの意味を正確には
解って居ないのかも知れない

でも解らないなりの
解釈で突き進むなら

誰かに色んな側面から
助けて貰いながら生きている

そういう風に認識シています

ジゴロとも云うらしく
ソレなら数名
存じ上げているなぁ
とも想ったんですが

僕の方は才能の上に
ああ云った手間や苦労は
シて居ないから
定義から外れるのかしらね

若しくは
彼らを超１流とスるなら
僕は３流って処かな

兎に角ジゴロって人々は
大変だってイメージです

何かあれば飛んでいく
って印象で絶対に
相手を裏切らない
相手の想いを酌み切って
想定以上の悦びを提供スる

機敏な行動力に
溜息すら出ました

やはり
人に食わせて貰うってのは
ホイホイとは行かないんだ
と想ったのを憶えて居ます

それでも嬉々とシて
それらをクリアしていく
彼らは或いは天職なのかなぁ
とも想ったモノです

240409 Looking back, a pimp's life

I titled it "Pimping," but maybe I don't know exactly what a pimp is.

But if you go forward with your interpretation in a way that you don't understand

I live my life with the help of someone who helps me in various aspects.

That's how I see it.

It's called a gigolo.
I've known a few people like that.
I thought about it.

But I don't have that kind of effort and hardship on top of my talent.
I guess I don't fit the definition.

Or...
If they're first-rate.
I'd say I'm third-rate.

Anyway, gigolos, I have this image of people having a hard time.

I get the impression that if something happens to them, they'll fly away.
Never betraying the other person
You take their feelings into account and provide them with more pleasure than expected.

I can't help but sigh at his quick action.
I even sighed.

I knew it.
It is not easy to be fed by others.
I remember thinking

Still, I was happy to do it.
I wonder if it is a vocation for them
I wondered if it was their calling.

by DeepL