240303 冷静と直情の間で

皮膚反射で
怒っちゃイケないなぁ
って猛省シました

何でも
そうなんだろうけど
もっとイイ方法が
ある筈だ
と冷静で居たいとさえ
想った位

直情的に反応シろ
と教わって育つと
矯正に時間が掛かります

特に僕の場合
１７位までは
努めて冷静で居ようとして
其処から方針転換

しかも
直情型でウマく行ってる
…ん？
行ってたか？
(*´艸`*)

兎に角
そういった お手本が居て
直情型にナりたい
と自分を矯正シて来た
そんな日々だったから

この中に
この脳内に
今一度…

いや
あの不精由来の冷静さではナく
もっと踏み込んだ
直情型の上に積み上がる
積極的な冷静さ

ココを目標に
進んで行きたいです

240303 Between calm and directness

I was reminded that I shouldn't get angry out of a skin reflex.

No matter what.
I guess that's true.
There must be a better way.
I even wanted to stay calm.

When you're taught to react intuitively
If you grow up being taught
it takes a long time to correct.

Especially in my case, until I was about 17.
I tried to stay calm.
And then I changed course.

And you know what?
I'm going with my gut.
I'm...
Did I go?
(I don't think so...)

Anyway
I want to have a role model like that
I want to be an intuitive person
and correct myself
because of those days.

In this
In this brain.
Once more...

No.
Not with that slack-jawed calm.
I've gone further.
Aggressive calm.
Aggressive calmness

This is my goal.
I want to go forward.

by DeepL