高山が作家として更に飛躍することを願い創作活動を支援したい！～エッセイ「ガーターベルトの女」の作品化を目指して【38】

妄想家・夢想家無名居士の夢物語の記録です
無名作家高山のエッセイ「ガーターベルトの女」の
映画化芝居化・・・その他いろいろ作品化できればなんでも
なんて途方もない夢を観ています
叶わないのが夢

2019.5.29～高山のことやトンネル工事現場で何がおこっているかなど：高山の結婚は？

今午後2時少し前・・・昨日は一日中あめだったが
今日はさわやかないい天気になった
雨も夜中には上がっていたので少し散歩はしたが
おそらく気分転換にはなっても体のためにはなっていないだろうけどね
何もしないよりはいいってことで自己満足している
いたって自分に甘い人間・・・それは誰だって甘いでしょうから
それでいいんだとこれも納得
私は人以上に自分大好き人間ではないだろうか
人様のことは全く分からないし想像もできないのでこう言い切ることは
不適当だろうけど自分好きというのはそれが理由で結婚にも消極的
あるいは否定的なのかも
今日もふと話題になったことだが子どものこと・・・欲しかったかどうか
私の答えは自分が子供だから子どもはいらないし愛せないだろうと
だって自分を愛しているから・・・たとえ自分の子どもでも愛せないだろう
観念的な仮想の話だからこれとて適切な議論だか答えだかわからない
人は変わるものだから実際その時になれば変わるかもうせいも大いにある
とにかく結果だけが事実として語る材料となる

例によって何を書くか先のことを考えず論立てすることもなく
書きながら考えるという私のやり方
結婚子どもの話になったので高山はどうだろうと
ここで話を肝心の高山の話題につなげることにした
エッセイ「ガーターベルト」シリーズは高山25歳の青春ストーリー
ひと夏といっていいのかそれ間短いが濃く激しい時間だったはずだ
Mという女と激しいセックスをむさぼりあった
それも赤裸々に書いている
どんな事情でMと別れたかは私も知らない
別れた後に高山は父親の会社の倒産を経験し逃亡者的生活を送る
その一時期Mと再会しその世話になることからエッセイは始まっている
しばらくのMとの共同生活・・・といっても当然セックスレスの生活
高山の方がむしろMとの間に一線を引いて超えないよう抑制していた
その後また分かれて20年以上たってから何の縁かまた再開する
しかしその時高山は自分の後継者右腕として20歳ほど年下の女子事務員
それも元々はアルバイトだった女の子をその仕事ぶりを見て抜擢する
その子は年の差はあるとはいえ高山を慕っているようだ
彼女の父親に誘われ家に遊びに行くのだが父親は娘から事情を聞いてる
だからあからさまに高山に泊って行けという
娘とどうなってもいいから好きにしたらいい怒らないからなどと
高山をけしかけるというが高山にしたら逆に手が出せない立場になってる
現場の抗夫達も高山の女ということになっているようで
女の子に言い寄る抗夫もいない
ただ事情も分かっていない元請けの社員がその子に言い寄って
ひどい金蹴りを受ける羽目になったことは前にも書いた
Mは背は低くてもスタイルがよくて美人だったという
右腕となった女の子は背も高くてやはりスタイルも良く美人だという
そんな子に好きになられる高山は仕事上でも男らしさを発揮して
やはり魅力的なのだろうと思う
若い時を知っている私はに色白でにやけた顔しか思い出せないが
私が想像するに高山はやはりMに未練があるんじゃないかと思う
Mはどうか・・・ここは男と女の違いだろうが
Mには一切の未練はないのではと思わせる
高山は右腕の子の気持ちはよく分かっているが
年の差もあるし経済的問題や家庭の問題もあり
結婚自体に難しさを感じているのではないかと思う
いずれ男と女の関係になったにせよそれが結婚につながるかどうか
高山も乾坤はしないかもしれないと私は思うようになった
それは家庭の問題家族の問題がどうしてもあるのかも
私としてはMの大ファンだからMとどうにかなってもいいかなって
勝手に想像してまたエッセイになることを妄想しているのだが
それ以上に私がMとどうにかなりたいとこれも妄想中
高山が50代半ばになった頃　何らかの進展があるかもしれない
その頃私はここでまだ何か書いているだろうか
そのことがいいのか悪いのか
できれば映画化されてMもそしてA・・・高山の右腕の女性にも
社会的注目が集まっていることを期待妄想している
夢のまた夢

December 18 during the work～『夢をかたちに』無名居士のブログから

2017/12/18(月) 午後 1:36
Complete translation in 12/5
Episode 15 finished edition

That day, we were in love hotel.
M wore a short T - shirt with a garter belt attached to the miniskirt of the jeans.
I forgot what day it was, but the day when M gave me a garter belt was called "Garter Belt Memorial Day". And on that day, I always told her to wear a garter belt on M.
M was secretly showing the garter belt playing at the store at the time of pants and enjoying it.
M was enjoying the secret of only us two people.
That was a fun thing for myself and for her as well as for mischief.

When I entered a love hotel M was pretty aggressive, and the two battles continued to be blamed and blamed.
M occasionally enjoyed sex like a beast.
She had such a severe period periodically, M and I at that time were greedy with the body.
For a while after I finished, I enjoyed wearing M lightly caressing and finger putting over there.
M seemed to enjoy the lingering finishes.
The room of the love hotel mixed with M body fluid, my body fluid and sweat, I think that the fragrance of the sex remains strong.

Unusually that day, we came to the biggest love hotel in the city.
M worked at the bar and I was also using a small beautiful love hotel in the country, as I was also known as a son of a construction company at that time.
But on that day, on my way there, M began to take off my jeans button and got a thing, so I could not drive and entered the hotel.
While M was taking a shower, when I was smoking a cigarette, my things were shrinking all the time, but the incense of M remained in my fingers and myself.
I used a condom, but M liked doing it raw if she thought it was safe, and I liked it.
There was nothing to put out inside, but if we could have children, we thought of thinking by ourselves.

M is also 24, I am also 26, because it was not amusing to marry.
As I was smoking, I felt the smell over there with M's fingers.
M sometimes smells, but it was not an unpleasant smell and it was a smell of female.
When M came out of the shower, I also entered, so I sweated only easily, but I did not wash away the finger smell.
When I got out of the shower, M was lying on the bed with just the garter belt in the panties.
I seemed to get estrus when I saw it, but on that day I had sex with M's mouth once and then two times, so the fourth time was suddenly impossible.
I rubbed a good breast in the shape of M and kissed many times.
M laughed at me saying "smoked cigarettes", but the kiss was aggressive.
M did not smoke, and she could not drink.
But she never said to me, "Do not smoke a cigarette."
M laughed, including my thing in her mouth,and she said, "It's still standing." But I said "I can not do today any more."
Because I was somewhat frustrated, I put my hands on her panties and stroked pussy with my fingers.
M shouted while warping.
Repeating kissing, she laughed and said, "I guess I'll be losing today," but she did not want to admit losing really.

We changed clothes when we drank juice and we got off at the elevator to the car. As it was daytime, we took a car to hide.
I took out the car while watching whether people who knew slowly did not pass.
Since it is a narrow city, the rumor soon gets departed.
Some girls already in the bar street knew the relationship between M and me.
Most girls said that it would be better to leave M.
They do not want to be taken customers, but I think that they disliked M because she was not so-called a woman who works in a bar or a nightclub.
I ignored that advice at all and I did not make public what I was dating.
I was dazzled for a moment because of summer light and serious sex when I put the car out.
As it was past 3 o'clock, I said, "Let's have dinner somewhere" M laughed, "At that time, you are reviving."

The voice of M was beautiful and made me feel comfortable when she laughed.
I smelled the smell of M attached to my finger while lighting the cigarette.
Running a bit, the silver Benz was running in front. Benz was wearing behind seemingly unlikely because two large cars were running slowly on a narrow road with only one lane.
As soon as I knew that A was Merced, I did not signal from here because I do not know what kind of situation he is on.
If A was on board with work-related people, I thought it would be annoying for me to signal.
When I said something like that before, A answered, 'You have to signal it if you do.' But I was troubled when he was with the work group of the Yakuza, so I put it behind his car and waited for A to notice me.
A noticed immediately, and as soon as he opened the window, he signaled with waving his hand.
It was a signal to stop at this point.
I recalled that there was a small vacant lot ahead of this, and signaled that I knew by lighting twice.

A stopped Benz on a small vacant lot. I parked next to his car.
M then muttered that "a woman is riding".
As A got off the car, he came to me with a long stride while removing the sunglasses.
As I also got off, I erased the smoking cigarette with sneakers.
M also got off the car.
A smiled, "Do you drive with two people after the sex?"
I had an old vending machine so I asked M and A what to drink. Both of them replied coffee, so I bought three cans of coffee and threw them for two.
I asked A if it was a job, he seemed a little troubled.
"I'm on a date," he said with a bitter face.
"There will be a new a yakiniku restaurant, I go over there."
"I would like to invite you too, but you also have a plan," he says something will disappear.

There was a woman's voice calling A's name. From the car, a high-heeled woman wearing a white blouse and a mini skirt with gorgeous colors appeared.
"What are you doing?", a woman asked A with a slightly stronger tone.
A pointed to us, "Both of you are my important friends." The woman saw only this one moment and said, "you promise to drive before meals."
There was atmosphere that woman was not amateur. She looked like a woman who works in a bar or a nightclub.
She was a beautiful woman, but she looked older than A or me.
When I say a name and say hello, M greeted the same way.
But the woman said to A, "Let's go now". She did not try to see me.
A says, "Although they greeted, you can not say a greeting". She said, "I am sorry, because I was in a hurry." She caught a glimpse of me.
M said in a loud voice to me, "I am sorry, I will go because I am in a hurry."
A woman who heard it glared at M.
"Beautiful but not yet a child," the woman said, looking at M hatefully.
M laughed, "Beautiful but make-up is dense."
A hastily said "You are bad," but the bad mouth of the woman did not stop.
"This guy is a boyfriend？, he look good on you," the woman said and laughed.
The woman looked down on M.
M replied, "You are the only woman being played by Mr. A. We are dating properly and I love each other."
For a moment, I got cold on my back.
"You are still a little girl,I am the daughter of Yakuza in Fukuoka," the woman told M to threaten.
However, M laughed and said, "I do not know the yakuza in Fukuoka, is it like Class B of the third grade?"
M continued laughing and said. "Is it an educational drama?"
"If you are so great, could you do such an attitude to his precious friends?" M said.
M was laughing, but still angry.
When a woman says "How old are you?", M replied, "You are about thirty years old, are not you?"
"You are going out with such a bad lady," M told A. And she told me "Do not give me a cigarette," I took out a paper pack Marlboro from my jeans pocket and handed it over to M.
M caught a cigarette in her fingers. I asked A "Do you have a lighter?"
At that moment, A was kicking that woman.
A did not kick so strongly, but the woman rolled and her skirt spread.
A shouted, "Do not be cocky, this bastard!"
While stepping on a fallen woman, "I wonder if you, amateurs or not, there will be courtesy."
"You are 29 but you do not know politeness, you returned home!" A scolded the woman.
It was only once at this time that A showed seriously angry in front of M.
When I go from the back to the place of A, I grabbed the shoulder of A by saying "You had better stop it."

"Because my friend says to quit, you, get on the car at last, I will send you to your house," A said.
"If my friend did not stop me, I was hitting you, thank my friends.A forcibly grabbed the woman's hair and pushed it into the car.
Even though he pushed the woman into the car, he was kicking a couple of times.
A returns to where we are, and drinks the remaining canned coffee and throws it around.
"I was sorry, I will see you again", he returned to the car.
Benz squeezed the horn lightly and returned it to the road.

I was thirsty, so I asked M, "Would you like to drink something again?" "Coke" said M and so I bought two coke with a vending machine and got into the car.
When I drank Coke, I told M to light the cigarette. "You do not know scary things." And I laughed lightly.
M said, "There is not such a thing, I just got angry from the way on the way."
After she drank the coke, M forcibly removed the button of my jeans and hugged the cock.
M laughed and said, "Is it cold like this?"
It certainly was cold, but my cook grew big because of the tongue use of M and the lingering finish just before.
I parked the car at the corner of the square as much as possible and moved to the rear seat.
It was narrow because the rear seats were also two doors, but raised M 's skirt, lowered the panties and had sex from the back.
I was surprised that M 's there was so wet.
When I shook his waist many times, I tried to ejaculate outside her body, but M was holding my waist with both hands.
When I say I will ejaculate inside, M nodded while panting.
I put out a considerable amount in M.
After kissing, M laughed and said. "Are we demons of libido?"
I wiped the pubic area of M with tissue and talked. "It was because of a woman of A before long."
When I was wiping out myself, M came embracing while saying "You are kind.”
"He is somewhat poor," she said.
I just nodded.
Returning to the previous seat and starting the car, M said, "Are you going to a yakiniku restaurant too?"

I said, "They are not going". M said, "I know, but we shall go, anyway."
I thought that was also good, I answered "Let's go".
M took off her garter belt and panties with his hips slightly floated. Then she opened the window and threw it towards the mountain.
M laughed, "Underwear is wet and I feel bad, I wonder what people saw that."
Her garter belt was not of the type like this one. It was supposed to stay in the panties, so it is difficult to wear only the garter belt when she throw away the panties.
While she said that she would buy panties at a convenience store, "I do not have to wear panties, but you will be jealous," she laughed.
On my way to a yakiniku restaurant, I remembered that there was a convenience store that was not so many in those days at that time.
M, who bought panties at a convenience store, wore panties in the car, so I was excited again.
M said "I will suck it with my mouth", so I parked the car in a fit place. Then she sucked mine with her mouth and hand. She drank what I had ejaculated.
And she said with a laugh. "Wow, tasteless, it has also decreased in quantity.
I was hurting around the crotch and I was surprised by the strength of my sexual desire.

When I got to the yakiniku restaurant I stopped at a large parking lot.
M found a silver Benz and smiled.
We entered the shop and looked for A.
A was in the back seat, drinking beer while eating yakiniku alone.
When M sits in front of the seat of A, after listening to "Where is she!?", she laughed, "Do not kick me."
M smiled a little surprisingly.
I asked, "Are you okay doing something like that?" A says "It is probably okay because there was a problem, so let's add more meat, which is not fun even if baked alone."
M would have thought that A was coming alone.
We ate a lot.
At that time, it was not as strict as drunk driving, but I stopped drinking two beers. A was firm even when drunk considerably.
However, A did not feel like being drunk.
M ordered a lot of good meat. And she ate as much as I was wondering where to enter.
All three were in a good mood.
A took care of everything. When I finished eating and went to the car, M told A, "I had something disgusting, but it was fun."
While smoking cigarette A, he spoke to M and laughed. "Thank you, no one can win you."
"I felt sunny" A muttered.

We parted by each car.
When A ran ahead and turned to a different road, it lightly rang the horn.
I returned it with horn.
M looked at me and said, "I'd like to take a shower at the usual hotel to eliminate the smell of meat."
I found out that my crotch responded.
M kissed my cheek and said with a laugh, "Let's do a lot today."

Trailer
With this, I will correspond to the end of the "Garter belt" series.
I think that M and A probably were the best at this time.
Especially for A it was a good time. M and I will walk another way afterwards.
She left me. However, friendship will continue for several years.
M is supporting me for my father 's bankruptcy, but then I will not be able to contact M while I'm going around.
I do not know the mobile number of M.
After a while, I learned about the marriage of M and the story of birth by a rumor.
I'd like to say thank you for meeting M once and for helping me at that time.
M is now forty - seven.
I remember M's smile like a mischievous child that day rather than remembering sex after eating yakiniku.

A always kept in touch with me even when I was in pain, but he is very busy when he become thirties.
It seems that there were various things after moving from a rural yakuza to a different group.
I do not know how he was at that time.
He came out of prison for several years. The attitude to me has not changed, but the eyes to see other people has changed.
He no longer trusts people. And he was always irritated.
He killed himself a few years ago and died. Not long ago he told me that he really would like to see him.
I somehow made time and saw him. He was calm at that time.
I think he decided his resolution.
I do not write why A killed herself here.
It is because it is not clear.

However, we were redoing youth with M and A and three people in the summer.
That leader was M.
Two people were swayed happily by the unrestrainedness of M.
I remember the air of those days.
It makes me feel painful when I remember it.

"Garter belt" series may possibly be written in the form of Gaiden, but for the time being, it is complete.

Thank you for keeping in contact with my old days, my dear days.

いよいよ～『夢をかたちに』無名居士のブログから

2017/12/18(月) 午前 0:06

今日は
集中できたこともあって
14話の英訳を
済ませました
いよいよラスト
15話に取り掛かります
ひとつの目標が
済んだだけです
まだまだ
何の役にも立ちません
何かの役に立てるつもりですが
それとて
思い通りになるわけではありません
思い通りにいかないのが人生
これからこれからです

この英訳が
どの程度の出来か分かりません
まったくの素人がやったことです
役に立たないかもしれません
私だけの自己満足に
終わるかもしれませんね
ともあれ
あと1話
集中して取り組んでみます
そして次のステップに
進みましょう
駄目でもともと
ひとつのアイデァを
ある掲示板の投稿でいただきました
今日　14話の英訳をしていた時も
そのアイデァが
ずっと当たアに浮かんでいました
というか
このエッセイ自体が
映像になっているのです
映像が浮かぶのです

ひとつのアイデァは
各章のエッセンスを
映像化すること
あるいは
パイロット版をつくる
ネットに上げる
そんな段取りも一つの方法
実際に作ってみたいよね
ワンシーンでいいから
MV感覚でどう？
創りたいね

例えば14話
ラ0面を食べた後の
商店街でのエピソード
いいよね
Mが
「私をキャッチして」といって
商店街を走ってきて
彼の胸に飛び込むシーン
大胆だよね
ミニスカートだったんだから
それをAに冷やかされる
そして
二人の関係が白紙だったら
どっちを選ぶと聞く
そこに至るまでの
3人の会話がいいよね

とにかく
各話に
映像にしたいエピソードが満載
だから
映画化したいって思ったんだからね
この話は宝が詰まっていると
さあ
ガンバガンバ
ガンバ大阪の世界
やってやろうじゃない

偉大な真理は単純なもの
私流の解釈だが
大きな仕事も些細な思い付きから
どうだね
そう思えば
力が湧いてきそうじゃないか
少なくとも私はね

やらないより
やったほうがいい
やっておけばよかったという
後悔はしないで済む
やってみることさ
先のことは分からない
やってみることさ
始めてみることさ
結果なんて
先の話しさ

"Woman of the garter belt" Episode 14～『夢をかたちに』無名居士のブログから

2017/12/17(日) 午後 11:29

The goal is a complete translation of 15 episodes
Complete translation in 12/17

Episode 14
I did not think that the garter belt series would definitely be so long. While writing it, various memories were discovered.
Thank you for including the impression of the first person.
This will be quite a number if I put together each chapter, and if I cut off the unnecessary part, it will be a short story. But now I can not afford it.
I will write this and I will make it to the end, but the schedule is undecided.

The development of the essay changed by having a gangster 's best friend called A.
Well, I may end the essay without writing M and my parting.
As of now I can not say anything.

In my last talk, I went to Fukuoka to eat ramen and there was something I went back home without eating. There is a talk that I remembered with that.
A love ramen until he died from his teens.

However, he did not bother to type in a shop reputed to be delicious very much. He liked the place where he could eat without getting tired of so much ramen.
Gourmet boom has already happened more than twenty years ago, and I hated both A, M and that.
However, he did not bother to type in a shop reputed to be delicious very much. He liked the place where he could eat without getting tired of so much ramen.
Gourmet boom has already happened more than twenty years ago, and I hated both A, M and that.
M said that even if it is so delicious it can not be believed that it will line up for several hours. "It was delicious when I was hungry and I did not want to eat anything especially for food.
I think that M may not have been so concerned about food so much because there were various other insensities.
I have not been concerned since long ago.
I do not think that people who are committed are bad.
Even such A and me, there was a shop where only one person was concerned.
The shop closed a while ago.
It was a famous ramen shop in our city.
The soil was the concrete strike. An old poster of decades ago was pasted, the appearance was also a dirty store.
Even such A and me, there was a shop where only one person was concerned.
The shop closed a while ago.
It was a famous ramen shop in our city.
The soil was the concrete strike. An old poster of decades ago was pasted, the appearance was also a dirty store.

When I was in elementary school, it seems that the store temporarily closed due to rumors that a cat was used to soup ramen. But no one knew the truth.
Perhaps, I think that it is accurate just that the public health center examined it.
The chance to go to that ramen shop was when I was in high school. Because the store is famous, A also invited and went with everyone else.

However, from the seniors at the time, it was told that "You do not think it is delicious even once you go."
"Be sure to go on at least twice," seniors said.
They also told us that "If you go three times, you are not eligible to eat,"
We thought "Do you have such a ramen shop?", But what the seniors said was also correct.

Everyone had resistance to the unique ramen soup's richness, but managed to finish it somehow.
Although it is not unpleasant, it was a unique taste.
It might be based on pig bones, but the soup was small and the noodles were thick and unique.
The member who went remembered the words of the senior and said together when "I went twice".
After a while everyone went for the second time, it was divided into those who said they were delicious and those who do not know yet.
A and I thought it was delicious.
When everyone went for the third time, there were some who were not yet understood, but most of them were captivated by the taste of ramen there.
However, the place there is far from our high school and it is just off the bar, so we were going to hide.
At that time, the ramen shop was opened with grandfather and grandmother, it was very tasty.
A ten-yen coin came out from the bottom when I drink soup at one time. When I said angrily as "Ｗhat is this? " The old woman asked me, "I will do it to you" at all. I was laughing.
There was a large amount of Lipovitan D on the back of the shop. We speculated that it would be a hidden taste of something, but eventually we did not know it.

When I was drinking at M's store, "I went because rumors that the ramen shop closes so close", A said.
The rumor has been repeated many times since closing the store.
It seems that the old lady got sick, it was said that the taste changed because the old man was doing with his son.
I asked A, "Whether the taste changed again", A answered, "The basic does not change, but the time of the grandma was probably the best."
Still it was delicious enough, but A added.
When asking A, "Is that store going to end?", It seems that it was not clear even if asked to the grandfather.
The son of that mentally handicapped person will not have anything to make, so the shop will close suddenly someday.
The opinion of people in the town was the same.
It was the best time when the grandmother was in the store, but it was still the same as being delicious.
M knows the shop, but one girl was hard to enter there.
It certainly was. I never saw a young woman coming alone.
I've seen it that I've been with the family several times, but I felt that she brought it to her father forcibly.
"When the grandmother was in the store, there was a girl who puts ramen in a pot and takes it home," A said.
When I was talking about a ten-yen coin, A smiled, "M-chan, If you live in the city, you have to go there."
And A pointed to me.
I said, "Will I take M to a ramen shop? At one time, she does not know the taste of that shop," I said, "You and I also quarreled around that old long time ago, we were saved by grandma of the ramen shop , have you forgotten about that? "A told me.
Ah! By the way, there were things surrounded by different schoolchildren in that neighborhood. I got too many people and ran away and when I entered ramen shop I remembered the grandmother said to put it in the toilet.
The grandmothers who came to search cried with "I do know that!" I remembered that and laughed.
"It was hot with a narrow toilet but it would have been hidden by two people," A smiled.
M told me, "Please take it with me, then."
I promised that "I will take you to the lunch break on the scene, because there is time when it is available in the day and it's time to go late and close as soon as possible".
At that time, I did not have to go back about 2 hours with my work relatively relaxed.

I had a meeting with M on my lunch break.
When M slowly eat ramen, she drank soup neatly and laughed. "I have not come out 10 yen."
When asking the taste of M, the answer was "It was delicious."
She said, "I wish I could come when I was in high school."
It was rare to say that it was delicious at one time, so I was surprised.
"Let's come with Mr. A next time," we laughed.
When telling A about it on mobile, A laughed, "Let's go before M's shop starts."
The M shop can normally be opened at 8 o'clock but at late it was opened at 9 o'clock.
It is sometimes nine o'clock to open the shop depending on M.
On that day, when I gathered at M's shop a few minute ago at 8, A heard to M, "I am free now, can you go ?" M said, "Because the store is my freedom, let's go."
But, unusually it was quirky, on that day M had a flashy appearance as I saw it. She was probably wearing a garter belt on a mini skirt and wearing netting tights.
I thought that M came consciously in conspicuous form.
A did not care about her clothes, he said, "Let's go then."

M, I turned off the electric sign of the store signs, locked the door, walked by three people and went to a ramen shop.
We passed through the drinking street on a deliberate basis, M at the top and we followed from behind.
A said, "She is a queen."
When we came to a ramen shop, it was pretty crowded. M was still conspicuous there. When A asked the grandfather that A opened the sliding door "Can you sit?" The old man pointing at the counter and beckoning.
When his son brought water and saw M, he was surprised that "Wow!"
The old man does not talk much, but he laughed at us watching "When the evil of the old days came and the two became worthy, they brought a beautiful girl.
He remembered us.
While A sucks cigarettes, he replied to the grandfather, "The contents will not change."
After a while ramen was put in front of us, we ate silently.
When M finish eating, she laughed, "Is it even more delicious than the first one, even drugs are included?"
Because the ramen fan of this store said so well with a joke.
When A issued a 5000 yen bill for three ramen payments, he handed it to the grandfather and said, "I do not need change, please say hello to the grandma."
The old man just said that he thanked us without making change as usual.
As we are about to leave the store, he said that a drunk middle-aged man already said,"This is not a shop where the baby will come, and anyone can see your pants."
M laughed back that "I hope to see pants if you want to see it, but I will come again."
A drunk middle-aged man had an angry face for a while, but as we stare at him, he was sitting.

M told that it was delicious while walking and did not return straight to the store and walked toward the shopping area.
The bar and the shopping area were adjacent. We were also walking behind M. When A bought a beer with a vending machine, he asked me "Is the cola good for the two?" I answered, 'Sometimes beer is good.'
M answered that she would share my beer.
The shopping street was dim, and at that time the shops were also few and tired.
When I was walking in the shopping area while drinking beer with M, I remembered a lot of things. I spoke to A on jeans shop. "A long time ago, this store had a good product"
A told M to point to a small pachinko parlor and said, "This was his home ground."
It was a pachinko parlor where I went through most when I was in high school.
M has tweeted beer with one hand. "Good, you have so many such memories."
"I have a lot of friends, but because there were no real friends," M said.
"You can talk like that in the future, both ten and twenty years ahead."
"I guess you do not get married either," M said.
She smiled saying "I am a cheerleur who will cheer you up."
M so took off the heel and ran lightly in the shopping street. And she turns around and told me "Please catch me."
As M ran, she jumped to me and hugged.
Although I fell down in spite, I managed to catch her.
When A unusually laughed loudly, he said "her pants were black."
And A asked M with a laugh. "For example, if you had nothing to do with him now, which one would you choose him or me as a lover?"
M instantly made a serious face for a moment and then pointed to me while laughing. "this guy"
"The reason is stupid, this guy."
"Although the rotation of the head is good, it is an idiot like a child, so I have to accompany it" she said.
M said so and laughed, "You saw the pants."
I was also funny and laughed but my body was in close contact with M and I was erecting.
When M notices it, she grabbed my thing and asked A, "Was it like this for a long time?"
A calmly answered, "He was excited from long ago, but you are excited."
There was a feeling that there was nothing like asking a question earlier, and A seemed to be convinced with M's answer.
If M says that is okay put on the heel and wear a heel, "I will drink a lot today and I can close the store if I get drunk," M laughed.
And she laughed, "I can not imagine things like ten years or twenty ahead."

Perhaps M suddenly jumped to me saying it looks like a cheerle if I think now.
Eventually I got the expectation of M, neither I nor A got married. No one thought that A died in the way that I was, and I did not anticipate that I will become a disturbing life afterwards.

I think that the ramen shop has closed the store in a few years.
A seems to have gone to that shop whenever he returns to town.
We were hiding in the toilet of the ramen shop during the summer time of this time around teens.
If I think so, I will be sentimental.
In the teen summer, the feeling of the body when M jumped in, the small hand of M grasping mine, the taste and air of that noodle shop, the smile of A, various feelings will revive.

Even after more than twenty years it is loving and somewhere is sad.

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2017/12/17(日) 午後 11:19

The grandmothers who came to search cried with "I do know that!" I remembered that and laughed.
"It was hot with a narrow toilet but it would have been hidden by two people," A smiled.
M told me, "Please take it with me, then."
I promised that "I will take you to the lunch break on the scene, because there is time when it is available in the day and it's time to go late and close as soon as possible".
At that time, I did not have to go back about 2 hours with my work relatively relaxed.

I had a meeting with M on my lunch break.
When M slowly eat ramen, she drank soup neatly and laughed. "I have not come out 10 yen."
When asking the taste of M, the answer was "It was delicious."
She said, "I wish I could come when I was in high school."
It was rare to say that it was delicious at one time, so I was surprised.
"Let's come with Mr. A next time," we laughed.
When telling A about it on mobile, A laughed, "Let's go before M's shop starts."
The M shop can normally be opened at 8 o'clock but at late it was opened at 9 o'clock.
It is sometimes nine o'clock to open the shop depending on M.
On that day, when I gathered at M's shop a few minute ago at 8, A heard to M, "I am free now, can you go ?" M said, "Because the store is my freedom, let's go."
But, unusually it was quirky, on that day M had a flashy appearance as I saw it. She was probably wearing a garter belt on a mini skirt and wearing netting tights.
I thought that M came consciously in conspicuous form.
A did not care about her clothes, he said, "Let's go then."

M, I turned off the electric sign of the store signs, locked the door, walked by three people and went to a ramen shop.
We passed through the drinking street on a deliberate basis, M at the top and we followed from behind.
A said, "She is a queen."
When we came to a ramen shop, it was pretty crowded. M was still conspicuous there. When A asked the grandfather that A opened the sliding door "Can you sit?" The old man pointing at the counter and beckoning.
When his son brought water and saw M, he was surprised that "Wow!"
The old man does not talk much, but he laughed at us watching "When the evil of the old days came and the two became worthy, they brought a beautiful girl.
He remembered us.
While A sucks cigarettes, he replied to the grandfather, "The contents will not change."
After a while ramen was put in front of us, we ate silently.
When M finish eating, she laughed, "Is it even more delicious than the first one, even drugs are included?"
Because the ramen fan of this store said so well with a joke.
When A issued a 5000 yen bill for three ramen payments, he handed it to the grandfather and said, "I do not need change, please say hello to the grandma."
The old man just said that he thanked us without making change as usual.
As we are about to leave the store, he said that a drunk middle-aged man already said,"This is not a shop where the baby will come, and anyone can see your pants."
M laughed back that "I hope to see pants if you want to see it, but I will come again."
A drunk middle-aged man had an angry face for a while, but as we stare at him, he was sitting.

M told that it was delicious while walking and did not return straight to the store and walked toward the shopping area.
The bar and the shopping area were adjacent. We were also walking behind M. When A bought a beer with a vending machine, he asked me "Is the cola good for the two?" I answered, 'Sometimes beer is good.'
M answered that she would share my beer.
The shopping street was dim, and at that time the shops were also few and tired.
When I was walking in the shopping area while drinking beer with M, I remembered a lot of things. I spoke to A on jeans shop. "A long time ago, this store had a good product"
A told M to point to a small pachinko parlor and said, "This was his home ground."
It was a pachinko parlor where I went through most when I was in high school.
M has tweeted beer with one hand. "Good, you have so many such memories."
"I have a lot of friends, but because there were no real friends," M said.
"You can talk like that in the future, both ten and twenty years ahead."
"I guess you do not get married either," M said.
She smiled saying "I am a cheerleur who will cheer you up."
M so took off the heel and ran lightly in the shopping street. And she turns around and told me "Please catch me."
As M ran, she jumped to me and hugged.
Although I fell down in spite, I managed to catch her.
When A unusually laughed loudly, he said "her pants were black."
And A asked M with a laugh. "For example, if you had nothing to do with him now, which one would you choose him or me as a lover?"
M instantly made a serious face for a moment and then pointed to me while laughing. "this guy"
"The reason is stupid, this guy."
"Although the rotation of the head is good, it is an idiot like a child, so I have to accompany it" she said.
M said so and laughed, "You saw the pants."
I was also funny and laughed but my body was in close contact with M and I was erecting.
When M notices it, she grabbed my thing and asked A, "Was it like this for a long time?"
A calmly answered, "He was excited from long ago, but you are excited."
There was a feeling that there was nothing like asking a question earlier, and A seemed to be convinced with M's answer.
If M says that is okay put on the heel and wear a heel, "I will drink a lot today and I can close the store if I get drunk," M laughed.
And she laughed, "I can not imagine things like ten years or twenty ahead."

Perhaps M suddenly jumped to me saying it looks like a cheerle if I think now.
Eventually I got the expectation of M, neither I nor A got married. No one thought that A died in the way that I was, and I did not anticipate that I will become a disturbing life afterwards.

I think that the ramen shop has closed the store in a few years.
A seems to have gone to that shop whenever he returns to town.
We were hiding in the toilet of the ramen shop during the summer time of this time around teens.
If I think so, I will be sentimental.
In the teen summer, the feeling of the body when M jumped in, the small hand of M grasping mine, the taste and air of that noodle shop, the smile of A, various feelings will revive.

Even after more than twenty years it is loving and somewhere is sad.

ヘンタイ度アップ中～『夢をかたちに』無名居士のブログから

2017/12/16(土) 午後 11:04

いつもなら
散歩から帰って
まだインスタの
アップ作業してる頃
今日は小雨が降ってたこともあり
すぐ戻れるように
近場を少し歩いて
いつもより
早く戻った

少し他の作業を済ませ
この日記を書いたら
保存した動画のアップ作業をしよう
それでどうするか
どうしましょ
前の掲示板やめたことで
一つやることが無くなったので
その穴が
まだ埋まっていない状態
でも明日からは
英訳作業し集中できそう
15話も年内には終わって
来年からは
次のステップにかからなくちゃ
その準備　用意をしなくちゃ

といいつつ
えちごつついしおやしらず
そんな水上勉の
小説だか舞台だかの
タイトルを思い出す

と言いつつ
あまり知られていない
掲示板をまた始めた
まだ誰も訪問者はない
静かでいい
これをタイトルに
今日つぶやいたことを
投稿しようとして
エラーになった
その文章は戻らなかった
よくあることだ
そんなことを気にしては
先に進めない
そんなこともある
投稿せずによかったのだ
と気分転換

このブログは
自動的のぺーいが保存されるようになった
すごい機能だ
書いたことを忘れて寝たとする
PCも自動的に切れる
ところが再開すると
何日に保存されたページがあります
読み込みますかと問われる
有難いことだ
何度もそれに助けられた
よく途中で寝ることがあるから
進化しているのだね

まだ11時
いつもならとっくに
12時を回っている
3時に目るのが習慣になっていた
さてこの後どうするか
動画のアップが残っている
ゆっくり動画でも見ようか
興味あるフェチが一つ増えたし
「踏みつぶす」
Trample
Step on face

ますます
ヘンタイ度
アップ中

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fukuさん　コメントありがとう～『無名魂』管理人日記から

2017/5/15(月) 午後 4:32

コメントありがとうございます
長年　私も趣味と言えば
映画鑑賞と書いてきましたが
観た映画のことを何も書けないです
映画のことを書き残せる人を尊敬します

fukuさんも映画のことを書かれていますね
俳優の話が次から次に出てきて
見ていない映画も興味を惹かれます
私は映画のことを書けませんが
レンタルで観たビデオは全部保存しています

最近気づいたのですが
これって保存癖っていうのでしょうか
先々見直す日がある・・・と思っているのですが
きっとどこに何があるのかも忘れているでしょう
最近はレンタル店に行かなくなりました

ビデオの保存癖が変な方向に走り始め
映画を観ている暇がなくなったのです
でも先日　高山君が紹介した映画
『ある夏、いちばん静かな海。』を借りに行きました
店の人に聞くと置いてないとのことでした

仕方なくいつも借りていた洋画のシリーズ最新版
『バイオハザード』
『アンダーワールド』
『メカニック』
それと『ﾄランボ』を借りて　即コピー

期待もしていなかった映画が
意外とよかったというのが
私の場合「アンダーワールド」でしょうか
時間潰しに内容も知らずに観た映画でした
だいたい妖怪？怪奇？ものは嫌いなのです

ただ女優が好みのタイプだったという理由でしたが
この映画にはまってしまいました
私流に言えば吸血鬼と狼との争い・・・この映画で
ヒロインアクション物が私は好きなんだと意識しました
ヒロインは ケイト・ベッキンセイル

コピーしたらもう観た気になって
『バイオハザード』しか観ていません
観ずに終わるかもしれません
要するに保存しておけばいいようです
おかしいでしょ

コメント欄に返事を書き始めたのですが
いつものように長くなりそうなので
私の日記の書庫に書くことにしました
こうやってコメントの返事として書いてはいますが
こうも長くなるのは高山君が書いた「自己承認欲求」からでしょうか

色々考えさせられるエッセイでした
「死ぬ間際まで、自分自身は何者？と問いかけるのかと思いますよ。」
まさにそうだと思いました
今年還暦を迎える私でさえ「自分自身は何者？」です
私の場合　付け加えるなら「死ぬまで性欲に悩まされる」でしょうか

追記
『バタフライエフェクト』の記述がありました
私には難解な映画でしたが
この映画を知ったいきさつや
言葉自体の意味には大いに興味があり
書きたいこともあります

その機会があればと思いながらも
書くのはめんどくさいなあと言う思いも
年を取るとすべてが面倒になります
これは私だけのことでしょうね
他の人は違うと思いますけど・・・

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