230130 スクワット(深・スモー→レギュラー)・ウヰスキー

スクワット(深)
13:06、最高39回

ウヰスキー
コロナ禍で
全く飲まなくなって
コレも何かの思し召し
イイ機会だから
と
此処まで飲んで無いのです

お酒は重症化スるとか
聞いたし
まぁ
んな訳アるかい
とは想わなかったから

何より
ぶっ倒れて居られなかったし
未知の病気だったし

ホントは今でも
解って無いのだろうし
僕は新聞やニュースで
知った風な気にナってる
だけナんだろう

こんな処で
死んでらんないのよ
とは
想ったのかしら

周りが迷惑スるなぁ
って想ったのが
何よりも大きかったなぁ

コロナに限らず
死ぬと周りの人が
何かと手間を割かねば
ナらなくナるじゃない？
其れだけは極力避けたい
状況だったんだよな

正直
はい！明日死にます！
って神様や死神が
謂ったなら
まぁ仕方無い
と考えてる
つもりなんです

でも
その場にナったら
怖じ気づくのかなぁ

怖がる自分を見て
あぁ
自分は斯様に
生きたがるんだなぁ
って感じるのも
一興というか
感慨無量ナのです(◍•ᴗ•◍)

Squats (deep)
13:06, max 39 times

Whiskey.
I stopped drinking at all after the Corona disaster.
That's a good sign.
It's a good thing I took the opportunity
I haven't had any so far.

I heard drinking can make you very sick.
Well, how is that possible?
I didn't think so.

I didn't want to stay down. I didn't know what I was getting into.
I didn't know what it was.
I don't even know if I understand it now.
I guess I just think I know enough from the newspapers and the news, and I don't want to die here.
I don't want to die like this.

I wonder if he thought, "What a nuisance to everyone around me.
That was the biggest thing of all.
Not just in Corona.
When you die, the people around you
I had to take care of the people around me, right?
I wanted to avoid that as much as possible.
To be honest...
Yes! I'm going to die tomorrow! I'm going to die tomorrow!
If God or the Grim Reaper says so...
I'm thinking that it can't be helped.

But I wonder if I'll be scared to death when I get there.

Seeing myself scared...
And I think to myself.
I'm so eager to live.
It's also a pleasure to feel that I am so eager to live.
I am deeply moved by it.