【詩】In the Morning Air of Spring

In the center of the indistinct transience
Lots of winds wander through lots of my selves
Gradually my consciousness was spreading over the somber blue sky
I myself fell down remaining upright immovable
Opened eyes wide are closed by no one
Little birds’ twitter keeps gnawing at the heart which is getting cold

Take refuge in the germ-free room littered with ineffective pills
Also today, in order to keep a vow of that day
Prepare myself to quit the struggle by being inorganic matter
In the silence only the time goes by
However do long to keep touching you more
Such as “What on earth can you get even if you leave yourself to words?”
Whispered softly by baby doll
Devour pills ineffective again

Days pass by thus
Yes, each time so as not to be forestalled by you
And so as not to be under sentence of death by you whom cannot meet easily
Just frightened, just frightened, but do want to be out of the window at any cost
Though could be hold by you right away if just open the door
Why cannot do it, why cannot do it

That is because I myself that ought to have died will be brought to life
All aspects of my consciousness will be purified, various my selves will be gnawed in rapid succession

Baby doll grins, “It doesn’t really matter”
You will never come again, you come for years changing your face
I want to be hold by you now
Air doesn’t know remaining, it’s You!
So I myself must remain
A matter perhaps still I, am lost in thought……

To tell the truth
Longing for me to get back I myself
That ought to have died……
---Memories overlapped to eternity
Pleasure which drives me into a corner
Sadness extremely humane
Pain which could be vanished only by destroying all selves completely
Every one of my selves comes back to me

I be am eager to stop…stop to stay here
In the midst of living and death
In the midst of change and halt
By being
Me, one complexity ill with happiness
Is going to be killed
In the air too much cruel ecstasy

Anybody don’t stop me
I’m begging you please
My consciousness, body, spirit
All the I
Would be gnawed or purified, though only that will do, that will do
What I do want is just

Again I myself went bye-bye
Baby doll smirks as triumphantly
Just only you, kept being calmly and for certain

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