231212 老いと焦燥

美味しいモノが
沢山は食べられなくなる

その昔
老人達を視て

何で
あんなに怒るのか
何で
あんなに辛抱弱いのか
何であんなに
慌てて居るのか
　
と想っていた
あれらの疑問が
その境地に
立ってみて初めて
心底解った
ような気がスる

待てないんじゃない
時間がないんだ
怒りやすいんじゃない
取り返しが付かないんだ
慌ててるんじゃない
次が有るか判らないんだ

みんな嗤うけど
心の底から僕
痛感してます

独特の焦燥感
独特の不公平感
独特の一期一会感

コレで今生の
お別れかも知れない

そんな事を感じながら
人と関わると

不思議と腹も立たず
穏やかな気持ちに…(･ᴗ･)？

あれ？
何でアイツら
あんなに怒ってるんだ？

231212 Aging and impatience

You can't eat a lot of good food.

Once upon a time
I looked at the old people

Why are they so angry?
Why are they so patient?
Why are they in such a hurry?
　
I wondered, "Why are they so angry?
I felt as if I could understand them from the bottom of my heart
I feel as if I truly understand.

It's not that I can't wait, it's that I don't have time.
It's not that I'm easily angered, it's that I can't take it back.
It's not that I'm in a hurry, it's that I don't know what's next.

People laugh at me.
But from the bottom of my heart, I feel it.

I have a unique sense of frustration.
A unique sense of unfairness.
A unique sense of once in a lifetime.

This may be the end of my life
I may have to say goodbye.

With such a feeling
When I interact with people

I don't get angry
I feel peaceful...?

What is it?
Why are they so angry?

by DeepL