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良い記憶なのに、泣けてくる

マジで無理なんだけど……

現世ってのは、皆さんこうなのかな？

意味分かんない！

健康に生まれたって、後々色々あるじゃん。

色々あるもんなんだよ……

あと15分で会議だ……

休みたい。

色々休みたい。

色々思い出す。

良い思い出ほど泣けてくる。

面白いことでも涙止まんない。

マジで、なんで？

心の準備ができてないって、こういう感じなんだ。

I can't believe I always prepare myself for the worst while everyone's alive …… That's the last thing I want to do.

You're the one who gives me wisdom……

I know I'm not the most…… well, I'm a terribly distant friend who doesn't contact people enough……

It isn't that I forget, I just have so much shit going on…… That's true, but that isn't why I'm a terrible contacter. 

I  just suck at contacting people……

I know it's not my fault. 

I know it…… I don't know. 

I don't know what the f*** I think I know……

But why! 

Seriously……!? 

Like REALLY??

I mean, I know……

I don't know.

I suppose it could have been somewhat anticipated……

But seriously??

I need to make sure I don't follow……

I wanna go backpacking to Mongolia.

Why?

I don't care. 

I just wanna go somewhere far and pretend life is in a totally different dimention.

I wanna go wonder around.

I just want away…… from everything……

Every time I see one of those electric scooters, I'll remember you.

Every time I measure my BG, I'll remember you.

Every time I hear anything related to AIs, I'll remember you.

You're supposed to help me learn programming you little…… cute little nerd.

Remember you said you'll make me a programmer?

You're the one who says rediculous jokes that make us all laugh. 

What are you doing? 

Seriously!! 

You're not supposed to be dead!!

Remember you bought me herbal tea to cure me?

You and all the health hacks.

Like, wtf! 

You're still young!

It's not the f*ing midevel era where there was literally nothing out there.

But in a sense, I think I can relate to some of your pain……

Still, "we'll meet again in heaven" doesn't cut it!

I'm so sorry I'm in Japan man…… we couldn't even meet since I came here.

The world was in a COVID crisis……

I may have not been able to really go anywhere, even if I was there…… but still! 

Seriously?

I wanted to help, at least do something……

I'm usually a good listener……

I've been a good listener……right?

I just wish we had more time.

I should contact another friend before I regret it.

This time difference is impossible.

It's night here when the rest of the world is day time……

Why in the world am I here?

That's bullshit.

I can ALWAYS text.

Who cares if we're healthy? 

Everyone dies eventually.

We all get sick at some point of our lives……!

You were the one who was super invested and informed about all the various wisdom out there……

ミーティングに泣きながらビデオ消して、音消して参加した。

途中から集中したけどさ。

I'm doing a good job……

Well, at least I'm trying……

It's a pitty the world only sees the product of our work, not the process or the matters surrounding our lives.

I guess no one truly understands the pain of others.

At the same time, what others imagine to be a catastrophe might not be such a big deal for that person.

What doesn't seem THAT terrible could feel like the end of the world.

We only know what we experience and our imagination only goes so far.

Seriously, though! 

Why??

I'm in a shit hole WITH you…… you f*in bastard 

You didn't have to go alone.

Your optimism and constant curiosity was an encouragement.

I'll always remember you.

I swear to God I'll never forget you.

I know you know your Bible.

It says never to swear to God, cause  we can't keep the promise or something like that…… how did the verse go? You're the one who knew the bible! Remind me what the verse said.

What are all the stories behind them?

You're the one who always opened my eyes to a world I never knew existed……!!

What should I do without you?

I'm lost……

I'm so f*in lost.

You're supposed to give me advice.

What will I do without you?

Seriously, what will I do……

You were always an amazing friend……

We'll ALL remember you for eternity.

You'll live within us.

Your influence will live on.

Rest in peace?

No!

Don't go man, stay with us.

We need you.

Stay with us in peace.