（一言ジャーナリング風味チャレンジ0--）2019.11.05 軽量

仕事再開初日からスケジュール多め。というか１日いなかっただけで色々事件があったらしく。自分が原因というわけじゃ無いけど、「なんで居なかったの」という無言の圧を感じつつスルー。それをまともに受け続けた結果が今の何者にもなれていない自分なんだから、それは（やんわりと）断らなければいけない。未来の自分のためにも。
ところでマスクをしたけど鼻から透明な液体が垂れ続けて、喉から血が出ているかのように痛いんですが。そして取ろうとした時間休が、気がつくとなくなっているんですが...定時で帰れるだけいいと思え（とは言われてませんが空気的に）。はい。
激混みの診療所で風邪薬をもらい、久々に寄れたデパートでタンパク源とサラダを買い帰宅。
Photo:体調悪いのに半自炊。白菜きのこ豆腐鶏肉鍋風スープを作り、納豆と暖かいキャベツサラダにニンニクだし醤油。サンマと海老マリネがデパ地下案件。

More schedules from the first day of work resumption. It seems that there were various incidents just because I was not there for a day. Although I wasn't the cause, I felt through the silent pressure of "Why I wasn't there." Because the result of having received it decently is a self that has not become anyone, it must be refused (slowly). For the future myself.
By the way, though I wore a mask, a clear liquid keeps dripping from my nose and it hurts as if blood is coming out of my throat. I've noticed that the time break I was trying to take has disappeared, but ... I think it's just good to go home on time (although it isn't said that). Yes.
I got a cold medicine at a crowded clinic and bought a protein source and salad at a department store that I had visited after a long time.
Photo: Self-catering even though I'm not feeling well. We made Chinese cabbage mushroom tofu chicken pan-style soup, natto and warm cabbage salad with garlic soy sauce. Saury and shrimp marinade is a depot underground project.