“見つめる”をはじめる。

在宅勤務4週間目に入ると、心の変化がいろいろある。なんとなくストレスもある。
きょう、大学の先輩と話していて「あなたはなんか書いたほうが良い、思いついたら着手したほうが良いよ」と言われてそうしてみようと思う。

Skypeを切ってから「3年ぶりに自転車にでも乗るか！」と早速動く。タイヤの空気を入れるだけで30分。空気が入らない、入ったと思ったら抜ける、もう一度やったら入らない…すでに疲れたよ。。
それでも何とか空気を入れて外に出る。こぎ出して「自転車ってこんなに重いこぎ口だったっけ？！」とタイヤの空気を確認したら、後輪の空気がすでに抜けていた。（一応前輪はパンパンだった）
…自分の不器用さにがっくしきたけど、近所の公園だけ回って帰ろうと決め、前に進む。

重いタイヤは全く進まない。公園に行くまでの横断歩道ですでに汗だく。歩いたほうが早いかもしれない。橋の手前で自転車の調子を見ている人がいて「この人も久々に自転車を活用したのかしら…」と思いながら通り過ぎ、公園に差し掛かった。

そこは、人・人・人だった・・・・・。

「うそでしょ？！」と思わずつぶやく。テントが多い。次はバドミントン。足取りが重いうえに気持ちもさらにがっかりして、公園半ばにUターンして戻った。

およそ20分。自宅前10mは向かい風でなんなら降りた。それだけで顔面汗、脚はガクブル。
暇すぎて毎日腹筋マシーンで100回以上腹筋しているのに。さらに脚でも押しているのに。なんなんだこの低運動機能。

本当は1回目で書きたかったことがあったのだけど、あまりにも疲れたのできょうの出来事を書かずにはいられなかった。空気入れ～自宅までで約1時間。

・・・こんな時だからできる“くらしを見つめる”、を始めます。


Watch the life gently

As I enter my fourth week of working from home, my mind is changing a lot. Somehow, it's also stressful.
I was talking to an old friend and she said, "You should write something, and start when you get an idea," so I'm going to do that.

I hung up Skype, "Well, it's been three years... let's go for a bike ride!" I think,so move quickly. It took to inflate the tires for 30 minutes. I couldn't get air in, I thought it's in and it's out, I tried again and it's not... I’ve been already tired.
Although I managed to get in and out. I started out and thought, "Did the bike have such a heavy handlebars? When I checked the air in the tire, the rear wheel was already deflated. (The front wheel was almost perfect.)
...I was disappointed in my clumsiness, but I decided to just go to the nearby park and move on.

The heavy tires didn't advance at all. I was already sweating on the crosswalk to get to the park. It might be faster to walk. A man was checking the condition of his bicycle before the bridge, "I wonder if this man has used his bicycle for the first time in a long time..." I thought as I pasted by him and approached the park.

So many person...there.

Are you kidding me? I muttered without thinking. There were many tents. Playing badminton was next. My steps and feelings were heavy, so I made a U-turn in front of the temple and went back home.

It was about 20 minutes. There was a 10m headwind in front of my house and I got off if I could. Just from that, my whole face was sweating and my legs were staggering.
Even though I'm doing over 100 sit-ups on the sit-up machine every day with too much free time. Even though I've pushing it with my legs. What's with my low mobility?

There was something I really wanted to write about in the first installment, but I was too tired to do so. Inflating tires ~getting home, it's about an hour.

I'd like to start what I'm starting to watch the life gently, which can be done at times like these.

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This text was mostly translated by DeepL.