ママからの手紙🌈

2023年9月18日 09:43

皆さん、こんにちは。
Cocoです。
お知らせが遅くなったけど
僕は今、お空の上からこれを書いています。みんなから沢山励まされて頑張ったけど、

7月21日　午後10時30分に僕は虹の橋を渡りました。

家族みんなに見守られて、いつものベッドルームから旅立ちました。
一人ひとりに「さよなら」を言ったんだけど、それがみんなの頭の中から離れなくて余計に悲しませちゃった見たい。

その時の様子は、僕が頑張って生きた証としてママがFbでみんなに知らせてくれました。

Coco crossed the Rainbow Bridge on Friday night at 10:30pm at home.
Our hearts are broken. He was everything to us and been a huge part of our life for 12 years.

July 21st Friday
He ate and took the medicine in the morning and stayed with my daughter till I come home from the Dr’s office.

Around 2:30pm
He started breathing deeply. That made me worried if he is going to be ok…But He fell asleep after that. So I let him sleep for couple of hours. He looked better when he woke up from the nap.
I gave him squeezed watermelon juice while he was still laying down. He really liked it and came to the kitchen and asked for more. I gave him some thin sliced watermelon and He really enjoyed it. But That’s all he ate that night.

Then, I took him to the upstairs.

Me and Coco slept on the floor together for two weeks because he needed to drink water every hour and going bathroom.

But That night,
He got up on the bed with My daughter’s help and laid on Daddy’s lap, Then came to my side of bed like he always did before fall asleep.

I asked him「Do you wanna get down and go to bed?」
Then He stood up and came to edge of the bed, look at me saying 「Yes」
Soon as I put him down, He walked towards to the vent, got some air, Then He collapsed…It was so sudden and didn’t know what is happening. Then His heart beat just stopped in a second.

He was the sweetest dog and full of love to everyone. He said 「Goodbye 」to his sister(my daughter), Daddy and me… used all of his energy he had left..

He had unconditional love. All the neighbors on the street always loved to see Coco. He really made everyone happy especially us. He went through five surgeries in his life and recovered quickly every time. He is a tough boy!!
He was attacked by other dog when he was 7 years old and almost died then, but he survived.
He did go through a lot in his tiny little body with big heart and joyful spirit.

そして「ママからの手紙」

Dear Coco
I still remember that day when first time I see you. Thank you for came in to our lives. Those 12 years went by so fast too fast…
I hope you were happy with us.

We love you and Miss you …

You are such a sweet, sweet dog, You were the one of a kind!
You are part of us and you will always be part of me.

You aged too fast. But wait for us in the end of the rainbow bridge. I’m pretty sure that your Auntie(my sister who passed in February ) is there with you. I will be there and look for you when my time comes.
Till then, Have a good time up there with your friends.

You showed us love every moment of your life. You were there for me when I’m cooking, going bathroom, on the couch, on the bed within one foot distance every day. You showed us how much you love us at all the time.

You hated when family was talking loud. We knew it is time to stop arguing when you disappear and went to the upstairs. You were watching out for us and kept family together with love.

You waited by the door every day for Daddy to come home around 2:30pm. When you hear the truck beeps, that was your snack time. I had to yell at Daddy, Because He was giving you too much snacks. But hey, You were so happy and Now I’m glad he did that. Your wagging tail and overflowing excitement gave us so much joy.

You had a big sister who loves you so much. She taught you a trick and You learned from her so quickly. She was a good teacher and You loved to play with her more than I am. Because I was too boring. I really enjoyed watching you two playing 「Hide and seek 」
She miss you so so much.

You loved your friends especially Frosty. You were looking forward to see him every time we go out. You waited by his house window and his mom gave you a treat that you really love. I’m so glad that you met so many pups in your lives and you probably been with some of your friends up there. Did you find Freyja and Ruby, Kamorah, Mookie there？

You loved to say “Hi” to the neighbor every day. That was like second home to you. She loves you so much and you loved her. She is the one gave you the “Kitty” . Your favorite toy.
I’m holding the “Kitty” right now while I’m writing this and thinking if you were still here when She came and holding you Saying Good bye.

We can’t stop crying. But I have to make sure that you are going to be ok.

You already came into your sister’s dream. Hope you give us more sign if you could.

We’ll miss you, dear Coco. You will forever and always be loved by us….

Born March 11 2011
Past July. 21 2023

僕はこれを読んで、どんなにみんなが悲しんでるのかを知ったの。でも、僕の体は軽くなって、とっくにお空の仲間と会って楽しんでいるから
「大丈夫だよ」って伝えたくなった。でも、どうしたらいいのかなって考えて、

そうだ！ママが運転してる時に会いに行こう！って、今の僕の姿を見せてあげたの。

ママは驚いて「Coco!!!」僕の名前を呼んでた。僕も「見てみて！」って一生懸命走って見せた。お空に旅立っても、いつもママの側にいる。
前より近くにいるんだ。

ママは悲しみから抜け出せなくて、それが凄く苦しそうだった。僕が大丈夫なのかが心配で、毎日のようにアニマルコミュニケーションとか色んな動画を見ていて、僕が今どうしているのか、どんな気持ちなのかを知ろうとしていた。

これだ！

ママがタロットカードのリーディングに参加すると知って、その時に今の気持ちを文字で伝えようって思った。ママは3枚のカードから迷わず僕がサインを送ったカードを選んだ。これしかないって。
そのリーディングがこれ。