2024/04/08 English

BGM: Cyndi Lauper - The Goonies 'R' Good Enough

I worked late today. This morning, with R.D.Laing's books "Knots" and "Do You Love Me?", I went to AEON. But I couldn't concentrate on reading them, so just thought about various things and wrote them on the memo pad in English (as usual). For example, I remembered a Japanese bestseller book "The Outsider Kids Who Can't Cut Cakes Properly [宮口幸治『ケーキの切れない非行少年たち』]". This book tells us an important possibility - some "outsider kids" who tend to do brutal things might have serious problems with recognizing this world because of their brains (such as autism etc.) I believe that it is a good, provoking book to discuss education itself.

Even though we see and share the same world, our ways of recognizing it can be different from each other - this is a truth I have learned until now. In other words, my brain must have its uniqueness, as your brain does. That difference is a key for us to understand this reality more deeply, and effectively - that's the meaning of "diversity". Thinking by that point, I looked back at my past days - the school days when I had been treated as a really strange kid (in a way, I was also the kind of kid "who can't cut cakes properly".)

I remember about the 90s - I can't see how the concept of "autism" could be treated in that era actually (I remember Steve Silberman's masterpiece "Neurotribes" which could say that autism was re-evaluated as an important concept.) For me, that period was just really painful/hurtful - one of the most hurtful for me was that it even seemed that I couldn't join any groups/communities (in other words, into any real "relationships" themselves) anymore. That said I must have been a mad person completely.

Oh, what a shame. I even thought that I should live this life by myself alone, not being able to hope for any other people's help anymore - But the times have changed. After that kind of crucifying "blue period", because of some comments from my friends, I started trying to read brain science or philosophical books to learn the ideas of qualia and recognition of this world - OH! At last, today I just thought about this kind of memory, not reading any book. C'est la vie.