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やっと安定して暖かくなりそうです。例年より遅めの桜になりそうな。今週も人生やっています。基本的にはとっても平和。夜中に突然右の鼻が詰まる〜痒み〜くしゃみ〜鼻水どっさりというのがここのところ時々。きっと花粉ですね。昼間がずばずばじゃないのが救いですが、突如として眠りが妨げられて辛い。

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I went to my very first live stand up comedy show, which was of Atsuko Okatsuka, an American comedian who has Japanese father and Taiwanese mother. The show was almost entirely in English, but I think I understand 70-80% of it and had so much fun. Over half of the audience seemed to be non-Japanese, which was fun, too.

Before that, when I went to Elmer’s Green Coffee, I ran into a former staff of Yard. She noticed me and said hi to me, which is so nice of her and made me so happy. In addition to catching up with some people in Osaka, it was so nice to see people and chat like that at a place I randomly went.

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I totally misunderstood the date of one of my classes. I thought it was today, but it’s next week next time so I had to ask a student who was going to have her class to reschedule hers. Also, I got another request of rescheduling from another student. I had one class that I need to cancel because of my illness and two classes that were canceled on the day this month. It’s hard when things don’t go as planned, but I want to take it easy, in a positive way, not freaking out much.

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We made tomato risotto and it was really good. There’re always places I want to go, but I tend to choose not to go too far or do too many things. I was very happy when one of the owner baristas of moi cafe remembered me and said, “You changed your hairstyle quite a bit!”

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Another fun day. But I just got a text from E saying “Can I talk tonight?” and I’m freaking out. Because there were some moments that I hurt his feelings and he’s been stressed out by his work, so I’m scared what the “talk” is gonna be. He doesn’t sound down in his text, so it might be the personnel change that he said was going to be announced today.

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Before I go to the class, I met M-chan who’s my friend from high school for the first time in six months with her second daughter. My spirit is always lifted up when I see her and I feel grateful that we keep in touch like this for 20 years after we graduated from school.

The last night’s call was a bit sad one as I expected. I totally agree that he needs some time alone or with his friends, but I’m worried that he thinks we’re not excited about doing things. I was happy with how we spend time together, so that was sad. Maybe he’s a bit obsessed with being productive. It’s not like we broke up, but I hope we keep communicating and find a way where both of us are happy. It seems like he needs some space, so I won’t contact him until he does, though.

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Was in Kyoto all day for a VR film project, and a class with A-san afterwards. It was very helpful talking about my relationship with A-san (in English) and getting a positive advice. Hopefully I get to talk with E. Although I have another class at night and it’s a long day, I feel like I can do it, thanks to that and maybe a sunny weather after a while.