230412 dumbbell jerk press・拘りに寄り添う

dumbbell jerk press 16kg
13:44、最高41回

比較的
と言うか
僕を知る人なら
ご承知の事とは想いますが
僕
死ぬほどツいていて
死ぬほど依怙贔屓されます

その御蔭で
妬まれたり足を引っ張られたり
色々と有りました

でもアチラ側の気持ちも
全く解らないでもないんです

僕にだって
そういうの
無い訳じゃないし

そりゃそうよね
横で列を飛ばされたり
一人だけ別の席に通されたり
人一倍そこで寛いでいたら
何でコイツが…ヽ(`Д´)ﾉ
とナるのは不思議でないです

だから僕
気付くと嫌われてたりします

あぁ
きっと何か僕は
ヤラカしたんだろうなぁ
って考えるようにナりました

だから去るモノには
去る理由が有るのだから
いっちょ前の大人の決断を
慰留して決意を鈍らせるなんて
って想っちゃう

一方で
今の自分という
オッチャンから視たら
熱意が足らぬ様にも
見えてきますね

230412 dumbbell jerk press, leaning on the restraints.

dumbbell jerk press 16kg
13:44, max 41 times

If you know me, or rather, if you know me, you know that I'm a relatively newcomer to the sport.
I'm sure those who know me are aware of this.
I am...
I'm lucky to death, and I'm favored to death.
I've had my share of envy, and I've had my share of being dragged down.
I've been through a lot.
But...
I can understand how they feel.

It's not that I don't have those feelings, too.

Of course you do.
I've been skipped in line beside you, I've been put in a different seat...
If you're more comfortable there than others, it's no wonder you're like, "Why is he...?
It's no wonder that I'm so hated.

That's why I
I sometimes find that people don't like me

I've come to think, "Oh, I must have done something wrong.
That's why things that leave have a reason to leave
I don't want to slow down their decision by consoling them about a mature decision they made a long time ago.
On the other hand
On the other hand, from the point of view of the old man that I am now
I don't seem to be enthusiastic enough.

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