about story of "20050810"

I first got a camera at the age of 46 and studied photography at Art University of correspondence education.
I graduated at forty eight years old . This work was produced as a graduation work.Held solo exhibitions in Tokyo and Osaka.

I have been suffering for over ten years.

Although I disposed of many his belongings,
but I could not disposed this a some his belongings
by any means.So it has been left for a long time.
while I shoot many times, I saw many these printed photograph,I was finally able to face the death of my son.
I wanted to be free rest of my life from his death.
and also I wanted to him to free as poor and dying son.

The purpose of presenting this work to society are,
I wanted some people who need this my works to know,
photograph as your tool, by using it, I thought you could face your sad memories.And also,
I thought that I wanted you to reconsider and think about yourself from this work,Who is your loved one? About the miracle that the person is always with you now.

I thought that I wanted you to reconsider about the characteristics of this medium "photograph" that makes you think of such things.

This work i s not as documentary photo work,
I don’t want to show to society as my son’s sad incident and poor mother story.
The reason I want to show this work to the world.

There is one more thing.

My purpose is to leave this work in future,
published photo book or public collection,
because,
not to be famous as photographer, not to earn a lot of money,

The boy who wear this shoes and this T-shirt.

I do not want to "He didn't  exist".

I have no children anymore.
When I and my husband are gone from this world,
I hate to be "a child who never did".
This is also my mission as photographer.
And this is revenge for
taking away my son from me　against someone, something.