飯田茜 / Akane IIDA

Unsicherheit

今年93歳になる祖母がこの４月に医療ケア付きリハビリ施設に入所した。自宅で連日転倒し、自力では起き上がることができなくなっていた。いずれは施設に・・と家族も思っていたがその時はついにやってきた。ずっと元気に生活していた祖母、それが当たり前だと思っていた。今、祖母は人生最期の時に差し掛かっている。誰しも死という確実性の中で生きているが、その時は不確実であり確実性のすぐ近くにいる祖母ですら不確実な中で生きている。この作品では、今は自宅にいないが存命中の祖母との記憶と対話を通して、不確実性の中で生きることについて考える。

“Unsicherheit” (German for “uncertainty”)

This April,My 93-year old grandmother started to live in a nursing home from She often ripped in the house and could not get up by herself. Our family had thought that she was still able to live in the house herself, but we had to make a difficult decision. Everything seemed to be okay and my grandmother was lively so we did not feel any significant changes, however, now she is near the end of her life. Although we are certain that we will all come to an end at some point, it is uncertain when exactly that will be. We are living in uncertainty as well as my grandmother is. This work discusses “living in uncertainty” with the memories of my grandmother that have disappeared from her house.