すなおの英語日記2023/6/16

I have very different aspects of me every single day. I feel that.
So, today, it's kinda day that annoys me because I know I have so many options but I can't really choose.
I think about the consequences that this thing might bring to me and I think about it, I feel intimidated and stuck at this point where I am right now.
Just thinking about my role and kind of like purpose of life, it's like a huge maze. 
I even don't know where I am where I am staying and where I am heading to. All of those things annoy me and take my energy our of my body and my heart?
I feel this strong needs that I need to be away from seeing someone else's happy faces or smiles because it makes me feel more isolated and devastated, plus I am not exaggerating anything.

So this is such a big issue that I have recently.
but I will just let myself drown into English world and maybe think about the meaning of my life, Sounds so heavy hahahaha but need to do this I know this.