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令和6年11月21日External help

Title: 令和6年11月21日

Time: 16時36分


What do I think I should die tonight or not, and why.

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Rewrite following sentences with appropriate grammar and vocabularies. Count how many words in this sentences. I don't think that I am such unresponsive man before. I am really pity person. I have said much aspirational things without any effort. I want to kill myself, more than any time before. However, this is something piled in long time of my life. This is not easy to change myself by myself. There are a lot of abstacles like now and past. Past time won't come back to me but I cannot forget those days. I lived in very shiny days before, I think now that so. I think I know the solution of this situation, what I have to do for my own future, But I can't. This is exactly my suffering. I think I must have many I really want to do, but record shows that I never could do any of them. This is my real. There is no help. I planned daily routine and long seen schedules and any of them didn't accomplished before. I have no faith on my activity. I don't have goals or purposes. I know about the nesessarity of goals or purposes strongly more than other people because I read some books on it, but I practically don't have any of them. This is extreme root of my pain. How do I choose my future? There is no room already. I can't help but thinking about other people’s efforts and what they got from it. I have never gotten anything before in my life. I lived with only what I was given by sincirely my family. I have never experienced even a slight success.


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I don’t think I was ever such an unresponsive person before. I feel like a truly pitiful individual. I’ve often spoken of aspirational goals without putting in any effort to achieve them. Right now, I feel an overwhelming desire to end it all, stronger than ever before. However, this despair has accumulated over a long period in my life. Changing myself on my own feels almost impossible. There are countless obstacles, both from my past and present. Though the past is gone and cannot return, I can’t let go of those memories.

I once lived in brighter, happier days—at least that’s how I see it now. I believe I know the solution to my situation and what I must do to build a better future, yet I can’t bring myself to act on it. That inability is the source of my suffering. Deep down, I think I have many things I truly want to accomplish, but the reality is that I’ve never been able to achieve any of them. This is my truth. There’s no external help for me.

I’ve made countless plans—daily routines and long-term schedules—but I’ve never followed through with any of them. I have no confidence in my actions. I lack clear goals or a sense of purpose. Ironically, I understand the importance of having goals better than most, as I’ve read many books about it, yet in practice, I have none. This is the very root of my pain.

How am I supposed to choose my future when it feels like there’s no room left for me to move forward? I can’t help but compare myself to others—their efforts and what they’ve achieved. In contrast, I’ve achieved nothing in my life. Everything I’ve had was given to me by my family, who genuinely cared for me. I’ve never experienced even a small taste of success.


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I once lived in brighter and happieer days at least that’s how I see it now. i believe the solution to my situation and what I must do to build a better future yet i cant bring myself to act on it. that inablity is the source of my suffering. deep down, I think I have many things I truly want to accomplish, but the reality is that I have never been able to achieve any of them. this is my truth, and there is no external help for me.

ivee made coutless plans daily routines and longterm schedules. but i ve never followed through with any of them . i have no confidence in my actions. i lack clear goals and sense of purpose. ironically I understand the importance of having such clear goals and purposes better than most because Ive read many books on it . but in practice i have nothing. this is the very root of my pain.

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