今日が人生で1番若い日~Be Present~

ご無沙汰しております。久しぶりの投稿になります。

いかがお過ごしでしょうか。今は、かつてないほどの規模の台風10号が九州を中心として猛威を奮っています。今年2020年は、自然災害、世界的パンテミック、突然の著名人の死、様々な悲しい出来事、起こってはほしくないことが立て続けに起こります。

今年は、どこか人類が地球から試されているようなそんな気がします。自分にとっても東京五輪を目標にストレングスコーチとしてトレーニングにより一層強度が増えていた中で、五輪が延期になり5ヶ月間合宿の中断を強いられていました。当たり前のことが一瞬にして当たり前じゃなくなる。また、新しい当たり前が生活スタイルを変える。このパンデミックを通しても嫌なことばかりではなく、コロナがなかったら出会うことのできなかった方、できなかったチャレンジ、また自分の未来予想図を設計するのに良い時間になりました。本当にやりたいこと、いつもできていたことができなくなるかわからないかを目の当たりにし、今後の根幹となる自分の中での約束事ができました。チャレンジングな人生こそより良い人生。どんな逆境や思い通りにいかない時こそ今を楽しむ。コロナ前までは自分になかった精神です。今を１００％楽しむ、できていたようでできていなかったことに気づかされました。まずは、自分が自分の人生を歩む、そして目の前の状況を自分の影響でコントロールできることだけに集中する。目の前の人を大切にする。彼女を東京五輪に招待して、今頃は日本を案内していましたが、コロナでその予定は今もなお延期せざるを得ない状況です。会えない期間アメリカにいるいろいろなことに彼女に、上に述べたようなシンプルであるけどできていなかったことに気づかされました。本当に彼女の存在は自分にとってかけがえのない存在であるということも再認識しました。今は、コロナで会えない期間それぞれの場所で頑張り、次会えることを希望を抱き今を楽しむそういう時期にしました。もちろん、不安になることもあります、孤独を毎日感じています。それでも今をできることをする。これを自分の中の当たり前にして、どんな試練が待ち構えていようが前に進もうと思います。

PS. 写真は家から1時間にある天空のカフェから撮ったものです。日本は素晴らしい国だなとしみじみ思います。

【English Below】

Right now in Japan, one of the biggest typhoon in last 50 years is about to hit Japan mainly Kyusyu. This is likely going to cause another disaster. This year 2020 marked as downs year for everyone. This year is supposed to be such a special and memorable year in a good way. However, bad incidents and nature disasters have kept being happened all over the world. 

It also challenged me this whole year. This year I was supposed to participate in Olympic as a S&C in Japan national women 7s rugby team. We were working towards Olympic, but all of sudden we had to cancel all the national team's activities for five months. The "Normal" that we thought last forever becomes not normal in one day, week, and month. And "new normal" makes our new life style. Yet there has been not only bad things but also good things. I could meet people that I would probably never met if pandemic didn't happen. Also, I could have decent amount of time to try new things. It gave me chances to consider of what I really  love to do in my future and plan far ahead of future.

Also, I was able to have strong mindset through this time that made us notice that things you can do or have today might not last forever. More challenging time you spend, deeper and meaningful your life can be. You have to live ate the moments and be present no matter how hard the situations you are around. Moreso, enjoy the tough moments. This is the mind that I didn't have as a person before pandemic. Live at the moments with 100% efforts and presence. It might sounds easy and simple but in fact I wasn't be present. First of all, I am the one in control of my life and focus on what I can control at every moments. Paying attention and be mindful with people infront of me. My girlfriend was supposed to experience Tokyo 2020 with me this summer and we supposed to go around Japan. However, it was also postponed with postpone of Olympic. Throughout after these time that didn't allow us to be able to see each other, I learned many things from her. I notice many important stuffs  that I mention above and I didn't have the mindset before. I also realized how much she means to me again. She's my girlfriend but at the same time, she's my teacher, mentor, and most importantly significant other. Right now, we are not able to see each other, so believe that we should use this time to enjoy ourselves at different places. With the hope that we can see each other soon, decided to enjoy myself first at this moments, so does she. I feel afraid of what's coming ahead or anxiety, and loneliness often. But I'd never stop fighting through and try to focus on what I can do to be who I wanna be and show her my growth or change. I am going to follow this principle that I could have and move forwards no mater how hard it will be. 

PS: Picture above is from the cafe at top of the mountain that located 1 hour away from my house. Local is so nice to be sometime. You can feel the nature and refresh your mind. notice that there are so many beautiful places in Japan. I will take her here one day.