2024年9月30日の話。

こんばんは。今日もお疲れ様です。

今日は、メンタルの調子が悪く急遽お休み＋通院してきました。
薬を増やしてもらい様子見。

明日は会社に行きます。
在宅勤務でも構わないといわれたのですが
仕事用のPCが家にないのでした。

明日以降はちょっと考えよう、うん。

ホントはね、出社してる方が気が楽なのです。周りに人がいるから。そして
その人たちは私に興味などなく、自分の事をしてるから。自分が希薄になった気がして、ほっとするのです。

今はそれくらいが、丁度良い。

なんでもない話や思いを吐き出すところが欲しくて
ここを再開させてみました。誰かに伝えたいことも一杯あるんだけど
まずは自分を安定させよう。ちょっとずつ。

Good evening. Thank you for your hard work today.

Today, I was not feeling well mentally, so I took a sudden day off and went to the hospital. I was given more medication and will see how it goes.

I'm going to work tomorrow. I was told that I could work from home, but I don't have a work PC at home.

I'll think about it a bit from tomorrow onwards, yeah. Honestly, it's easier to go to the office. Because there are people around me. And those people are not interested in me, they're just doing their own thing. I feel like I've become less aware of myself, and it's a relief.

That's just how good it is for now.

I wanted a place to talk about trivial things and vent my thoughts, so I decided to restart this blog. There are so many things I want to tell someone, but first I need to stabilize myself. Little by little.