2023/06/25 English

BGM: コトリンゴ - 悲しくてやりきれない

It was a day off today. After finished reading Karen Cheung's "The Impossible City", I uploaded a short review and a pic of it on Instagram (I believe that this book would be in "one of the best books in the first half of 2023", or just "the best books in the whole 2023"). I brought it to the library to return, and found an interesting book "Trop intelligent pour être heureux?" by Jeanne Siaud-Facchin. It seems that the translation of that content is not natural so a little bit difficult to read. But it would follow one of the fields I am interested in so I decided to borrow that. By the way, once I had been checked my IQ by WAIS-III, I was told that it could be 121. I heard that the meaning/definition of the IQ of gifted is more than 130. In short, I am not a gifted person... But even though it could be, I guess this difficulties I have been feeling would come from that characteristic of mine. I want to learn from that book modestly... How would it work?

A Discord user from America had asked me that "Does the Japanese learn about MXY-7 in schools?". TBH I had never heard that MXY-7 so googled it, and found that it was related with "Zerosen" in the WW2 (or The Pacific War). I answered him like this. "We Japanese tend to learn the history from our ancient time in schools. Therefore we have to learn that war at the end of the semester. At that time we don't have enough time to learn steadily... But instead of that, some of Japanese marvelous anime, manga artists and authors express their great works about that war. Have you ever heard the anime 'In This Corner of the World'?". Then he watched that "In This Corner of the World", and sent me that he was really impressed by that. It "provoked" him a lot of ideas... I see. It could be a tiny, "So what?" story. But I want to write this "fruit" of the international communication/friendship. I also thought that I want to see Suzu-san in that movie at Kure, the city she has lived. I would like to watch it again on Netflix.

After enjoying a nap, I went to AEON. There, I tried to complete writing the handout of homework to the English conversation class. But I couldn't. So I thought I have enough time to wait for the good idea coming. I tried to read the book I borrowed this morning, "Trop intelligent pour être heureux?" with one of my favorite albums "Voyager" by Momus. After that, I even tried to read Yukio Mishima's "Confession of a Mask". Yukio Mishima's that masterpiece is a kind of "spiritual source" for me to try to write my memoir. Suddenly, I thought that "Oh my gosh, I am just an old dude and now living in the middle of my midlife. What chapter am I living in my life story?". Now is the 2020sm but I am living in virtual 1990s like enjoying the "endless adolescence". I listen to Blur, Beastie Boys, and Oasis. I read Haruki Murakami and Paul Auster... I can't see if it would have any value to write my memoir. It is really enigmatic. But I don't want to spend my days without nothing till I die. I want to write about my "Young, Alive, In Love" story.

This evening I attended to an online meeting on ZOOM. There, watching an American sitcom "The Cosby Show" without any subtitles, we tried to talk about what the characters were talking. What was going on in this great home drama? And suddenly, the host asked us "How would you do if you feel great sadness?". We talked about that a lot, too. When I am sad... Once I bought a lot of cans of beer, and drank them completely till I fell asleep. In a way, it could mean that I had tried to press the reset button of my brain. But, as you know because you are using your laptop, desktop, or smartphones, that might "crush" myself exactly. So now I try to think like this. "I have to let myself flow in time. Time will cure my mind/soul". I say this to myself, and would watch some great classic movies. Comedies, or depressive movies... Yasujiro Ozu's masterpieces, or the movie "In This Corner of the World" also will cure my spirit too. I wished I could talk about this kind of instant lifehacks with the Russian friend, Victoria (She is from Russia... then I want to talk about the movies by Tarkovsky even if this idea is too "readymade").