Gu-chi again

It's been a year since I came here, living in this style.

And you know what? I'm being myself for my entire life, but been the hardest time in my life too. so what does it mean? Do I hate myself being the way I am, or is it just because what i'm doing in my life, this stage is really challenging? 

What it means, being my self, it's that I'm being honest for every moment, even for my job, my day off everything. I thought this is how I want to be, and would make my life more easier. Oh well, maybe I met a perfect pal of mine, which was caused by my honesty. But besides that,  I started to notice that I am totally not "average" person. "Average" I mean is like people who has several similar thinking types with others, shares their vision with others, works for something thats already set out in the country, what you like you hate, what you're living for, ugh ....so tiring.

Twice I was told, "you're really an alien ". I'm not screwing up with grammar. 

Yeah, I came from space, space from my mom's tummy. So what?

WHY ARE YOU LIVING? 
To live happily ever after? To be a doctor and save life? To change the world?
Anything is great. Unless you have some reason for it, and you're working on it. What makes me ^%$&^% is when I see tons of people doing there job, spending their precious time for what they really hate, or thinking nothing and just insulting the environment, the people, the city, the country, the prime minister, world, universe...

wow, time flies.

I should take a bath. bye