My attempts at humanizing porn

I wrote an essay once, analyzing an artwork from a series of artworks titled, the feminist project. The artwork in question is a magazine cutout, drawn over with crayons and coloring pencils. The cutout is a picture of a naked woman posing in front of a famous car, called the ford model T. I wrote something about how ford is often praised and criticized for fordism, inventing mass standardized production and mass consumption. Marxists also love to mention how ford is an exemplary capitalist for further alienating workers from the profits they make, from the know-how necessary for production, and from the means of production. Fordism according to urban lore, was inspired by the ways in which animal carcasses were treated by butchers, turning living animals into packages of meat through an assembly line.
Meanwhile, porn is often criticized for their dehumanizing nature, featuring close-ups of boobs and genitalia, figuratively cutting up bodies of models into palatable pieces, ready for consumption. Or that porn focuses too limitedly onto areas of human life where sexual activities occur, isolating such sexual instances from the more platonic moments of human relationships.
So one way or the other, I managed to say that the color red that’s abundantly used to cover up the model’s body, ford’s model T in the background, and that this picture is from a porn magazine, all tell a story about how porn isolates, alienates, and prepares models into dehumanized pieces of pornographic material that can readily be consumed by viewers.
This obviously was just some assignment I had to write for a class, and by no means I believed in any of it. It was just fun to write up this analysis that happened to have something interesting to say about the artwork that I chose to write about.
And at the time I never thought that I would be part of this industry.
But all the essays and readings I did on feminism and porn, have so far been very informative in helping me decide my porn actress persona, as well as deciding what to do with the social media aspect of my work as a JAV star.
While even at the time I didn’t believe in half the things I wrote for class, it wasn’t that I dismissed everything that my feminist sisters had to say about porn. Rather I listened very carefully, because I’ve always loved porn. I listened carefully so that I could enjoy porn in ways that didn’t hurt the people involved in making it, and justly compensate creators for the work they put in.
Which was why I saw some truths in criticisms such as that it can be misleading for sexually inexperienced people to learn from porn which isolates and only highlights sexual encounters, and doesn’t depict everything that happens before and after. I saw some truths to criticism not just of porn but the entertainment industry in general that make palatable characters out of actors, and make them seem like perfect, godly, idols that didn’t have lives outside of all that’s on media.
Which is why I talk about my hobbies, life, thoughts on random things, that are all so unrelated from the videos I shoot. That is why I talk about what I was thinking while filming a certain scene, or why I mention from time to time that I am an actor, acting out a fictional character in all of my videos. I try to share about my life so that people see me as a human being, with different emotions, desires, and perspectives. Obviously I don’t share everything about my life for privacy and safety reasons, but I probably am one of those porn actresses who are pretty open about their personal life, and considered down to earth.
Obviously it’s not to say that actresses who share less are less human or somehow I’m criticizing that they are contributing less to humanizing porn and porn actors. No actor has absolutely any responsibility to share any part of their private life even for some ethically just causes. Also nobody needs to prove that porn is a work of fiction, because porn is a work of fiction, and there’s no denying it. But sometimes we are very good at our jobs, and what you see on the screen can seem very real. While it’s a simple truth that porn actors are human just like you, and porn is a work of fiction that specializes in depicting sexual fantasies and fetishes, people need to be reminded that porn isn’t real. Not all the time, but just now and then. That is why I make these attempts at humanizing porn, which is just my melodramatic way of saying that porn is not real life but a blissful and exciting experience created by hardworking people.