FIND ME

サン・セポルクロ広場（イタリア・ミラノ）ファシズムが生まれた場所。
1919年にムッソリーニがここで社会主義に対して戦うことを
宣言したことが、ファシズムの起源だと言われてる。

リヨンに帰ってきて授業の読み物をしていて気づいたのだが、ミラノに行ったときに実際にファシズムが生まれた場所を通っていて、気づかずにその場所の様子を写真に収めていたということ。

「孤独」を通して人生と向き合う。
何が好きで何がしたいのか。" I am as you desire me" になっていないかい。
この授業を次の進路決定（就活・それとも別）の前にとっていて本当に良かった。

あと数時間でテストが始まるからnoteとか書いている場合じゃないんだけど心に刻みたい、できるだけ長い間。大事だと思う。

ミラノでディナーする人々、楽しそう。

“Because we have freed ourselves of the older overt forms of authority, we do not see that we have become the prey of a new kind of authority. We have become automatons who live under the illusion of being self-willing individuals. This illusion helps the individual to remain unaware of his insecurity, but this is all the help such an illusion can give.” 

大好きなアナベル

"Positive freedom consists in the spontaneous activity of the total, integrated personality. "

"what matters is the activity as such, the process and not the result. We produce not for a concrete satisfaction but for the abstract purpose of selling our commodity ; we feel that we can acquire everything material or immaterial by buying it, thus things become ours independently on any creative effort of our own in relation to them. --- The emphasis thus shifts from the present satisfaction of creative activity to the value of the finished product. Thereby man misses the only satisfaction that can give him real happiness -- the experience of the activity of the present moment -- and chases it -- the illusory happiness called success." 

可愛いお家の壁とバルコニー。
通りを歩いていて、見上げて、
家の隙間から見える空に言葉にできない有り難さを感じる。

"The victory of freedom is possible only if democracy develops into a society in which the individual, his growth and happiness, is the aim and purpose of culture, in which life does not need any justification in success or anything else, and in which the individual is not subordinated to or manipulated by any power outside himself, be it the state or the economic machine ; finally, a society in which his conscience and ideals are not the internalization of external demands, but are really his and express the aims that result from the peculiarity of himself. "

自分が囲まれているものに気づくこと
その裏側を見ようとすること
そこと対比して自分の思考の仕方を捉え直すこと
ついでに掃除の習慣もつけること

このお空はミラノで起きていたことをずっとどう見ていたのだろうか

ということで、ファシズムの授業の中間テスト受けてくる。
頑張れ自分。