Annoying

It's  been a while between daily.
I had a hard schedule  these days and also many accidents. That's  why I could not afford to write.
My recent  annoying  is about my future options. I have a boyfriend. We are together for over 2 years. We were thinking of getting  marriage. But, I feel that he is not the one. So, I think it is better breaking up for both. But, his kindness spoil my decision.
Meanwhile, I am thinking of going to working holiday. I know that if we keep our relationship,  I miss the timing.
I have no idea about what I should do.