The Importance of the Unspeakable

There are things that cannot be put into words.
Feelings, thoughts, and many other things.
I have felt many times the sensation of something important spilling out the moment I put it into words.
The moment you eat something and say "Delicious!” the moment you say it, it becomes just another delicious thing.
The moment you listen to music and say, "Wow! the moment you say that, it becomes just that.
I don't like that, so even if I do put it into words, I make an effort not to let it end there, but to keep it mulling around in my mind.

This is not to say that I don't want to express my emotions.
It is that I don't want to confine that expression to words and explanations.
I really don't want to lose the wonder of the thing by immediately putting it into words or explaining it away when my heart is moved.
So while putting things into words, I strongly remind myself to never forget that there are things that cannot be fully put into words.

Human beings have evolved and developed greatly by theorizing, calculating, and quantifying things.
However, I disagree with the idea that everything in this world can be explained or handled with theories and numbers.
In fact, the Internet, which is indispensable for our daily lives, is the ultimate in arithmetic and numerics, and I myself have benefited a lot from it.
In such a situation, I always remind myself not to fall into the mistake of thinking that this world is made of calculations and numbers.

I always remind myself not to seek only efficiency.
There is so much to lose by thinking only about efficiency.

I also don't trust people who make quick decisions on everything.
There are many such people.
People who immediately make a decision on any matter or come to a conclusion, saying, "That's the way it is”. I never trust people who make quick decisions based solely on their own rules of thumb, without any intellectual insight at all.
How can I trust someone who doesn't hesitate, who doesn't think, who doesn't reflect or regret, etc.?

I value leaving things unexplained in words and numbers.
I feel that if I don't, some important sense within me will be scraped away.
For this reason, I dare to leave ambiguity and unclarity.
It is very difficult to maintain ambiguity.
It is not a pleasant state.
Sometimes I have to give up on things that spill over and move on.
Even in those times, I try to remember that "some things spill over" so that I don't impoverish my world.

I don't know what that means.
Even if I don't know what it means, I cherish my feeling that "it feels like that”.
(May 8,2022)