自治体学会　公的扶助研究会との別れ　別れの痛み

自治体学会　公的扶助研究会との別れ　別れの痛み

　人生を共にしてきたものと別れる、お金のために。手当り次第自分の感性に従って交際費を使い、過去に心身共に限界がきて
2回、多くの交際費を切り捨てた。2回の修羅場でも切り捨てなかったが別れることにした。

　自治体学会は仕事を始めて、入会した。自治体職員も研究者も市民もともに学ぶ学会、革新自治体の最末期において入会したが、その考え方、社会学的哲学は私の中核と一致した。今も多くの人はその思いを引き継ぎ、新たな時代の中で、まちづくり、政策の研究、に励んでいる。が中核が私と一致しなくなる。組織や学会の中央で奮闘する人には響く研究テーマは、末端で働く私には響かない、公務員アワ－ド、大手コンサルタントと人脈、分析手法が被り、哲学や経済的不公正に取り組む視点とは離れたところに行ってしまった。

　それに歯止めをかけてたくて、哲学と合わせ、世界の先行研究やデータと組み合わせ、税の末端現場から、福祉を視点を入れて、論文をまとめ何回も学会に提出したが、日の目を見ることもなかった。役目はもう果たしたと思う。

　転職エ－ジェントから政策提言の地域コンサルタント会社を進められ、退会すると自治体のトレンド情報収集に不都合だなと思ってしまい苦笑いする。

　人生の修羅で助けてくれた生活と健康を守る会の研究誌は解約しなかった。ここの原点はかわらない。進化している。公的扶助研究会は
、生活保護のケ－スワ-カ－、学者、福祉の現場の関係者、教育、医療の現場の人脈が集う公的扶助の研究会で、このような仕事をしたかったイメージそのもの。生活と健康を守る会の研究誌より現場に即した専門的知識も多く切り捨てるのは忍びないが、今の私の力では使いこなせないので生活と健康を守る会の基本知識と態度に戻る。地域や組織の末端で、もう一度基本に戻る。

　自治体学会からは退会受理メールが来たが、公的扶助研究会からは来ない。なんだろう好きになりお互いに変わってしまった女性からは
別れを認めれれ、好きになりあこがれた変わらない女性からは返事がこない。

#自治体学会 ＃公的扶助＃コンサルタント＃アワ－ド＃生活保護

Parting Ways with the Municipal Government Study Group and the Public Assistance Research Society: The Pain of Separation

Parting with something that has been a part of your life, for the sake of money. Following my own instincts, I used my expenses liberally, and twice in the past, when I reached my mental and physical limits, I cut off many of these expenses. Even during those two difficult times, I didn’t cut ties, but I have now decided to part ways.

I joined the Municipal Government Study Group when I started working. This group, where municipal employees, researchers, and citizens learn together, aligned perfectly with my core beliefs, especially during the last days of progressive local governments. Many people still carry on this spirit, dedicating themselves to city planning and policy research in this new era. However, their core values no longer align with mine. The research themes that resonate with those fighting at the center of organizations and study groups do not resonate with someone like me, working on the periphery. The focus has shifted towards public service awards, connections with major consultants, and analytical methods that stray away from addressing philosophical and economic injustices.

In an effort to curb this shift, I combined philosophy with global leading research and data, and compiled several papers from the perspective of welfare at the grassroots tax level, submitting them to the group multiple times, but they never saw the light of day. I feel that I have fulfilled my role.

A job agency recommended a regional consultancy firm focused on policy proposals, and I smiled wryly, realizing that leaving the group would make it inconvenient to keep up with trends in local government.

I didn’t cancel my subscription to the research journal of the Association to Protect Life and Health, which supported me during life’s hardships. The essence of this association remains unchanged, and it continues to evolve. The Public Assistance Research Society, which includes welfare caseworkers, scholars, professionals in the welfare field, and connections in education and healthcare, embodies the kind of work I wanted to do. Though this research society offers more field-oriented specialized knowledge than the Association to Protect Life and Health, I feel reluctant to part with it. However, I realize that I currently lack the capacity to fully utilize it, so I am returning to the basic knowledge and attitude fostered by the Association to Protect Life and Health. I am going back to the basics, working on the periphery of communities and organizations.

I received a confirmation email for my withdrawal from the Municipal Government Study Group, but nothing from the Public Assistance Research Society. It’s as if a woman you once loved, but who has changed, acknowledges the breakup, while a woman you admired and loved, who has remained unchanged, does not respond to your farewell.

#MunicipalGovernmentStudyGroup #PublicAssistance #Consultant #Award #Welfare