How am I gonna do??

My experience in Philippine just ended suddenly. It is just so hard, because no one could expect that. It is been a while from the pandemic of covid 19 started to spread all over the world. the effect it gave us is so miserable. I even didnt think I would come back to Japan earlier, but life is just cannot be expected. I mean who knows what is going to be happen in my future. That can be one of the joyful in life. Kind of.

Now I need to do my task here in Japan. Our project stopped, so we need to get going still. What I need utmost is to clarify what I get from this experience. What did I do there. What did I get improved at myself and as one of a team members. 

One of the reason I came to Philippine was to find my strong point to see my confidence. I just wanted to trust myself. For now I could realized that I like English even if I am not in overseas. I cannot still define what moves my feeling and motivation to English. But at least I could know I like myself any time I try to learn English. English is a tool for me to communicate with people who I cannot talk in Japan. When I could understand what the local people saying in English, I felt so wonderful and interested at the same time because they have their own background, I could catch it. I am writing it so freely, so it maybe difficult to understand what I am trying to describe.. Sorry lol. Since I noticed how interesting to know other people s opinion and thoughts, and English can make it possible. I need more knowledge about history of Japan and other country`s relationship in the past and now. 

I will study history and recent news from now like immediately .  Also continue to write down here not to forget and make it my own.