No body gets everything

Dilemma

I have noticed in the last few years that I have always had a dilemma in my life that felt like I don't get things fall well into my puzzle frame.
But today right before I write this blog, I was like "hmm wait a minute, of course nobody gets them all fit in a frame like with a snap of finger, it takes a lot of time and if you get one thing you put another left outside the frame."
It is something you would probably say "what are you talking about Hanae, you just realized this now?!" ..well, I mean I would say I am really chewing on it now and enjoying it finally.

Having grown up as a kid who loved having activities going on outside of school and never was fulfilled doing one thing, I started feeling very uncomfortable as I get older since I felt like I was always lacking direction and didn't know what I wanted. However recently I am slooooowly started getting ideas on it. It is more like, I started having ideas on what kind of lifestyle I want to have rather than just being fixated on the search of WHAT I do.
And starting to look at the "missing parts" to be essential parts of joy.

What's wrong with not having everything

When I started thinking about this, first thing I needed to ask myself was
: so why do you try that hard to get things all well?
And I got to realize how blessed I have been for having lots of good thing all happen in one small city and able to meet so many cool friends.
I didn't realize how lucky I have been and things just were working perfectly for me even in times where I thought they weren't.

If you are missing something, you might be doing life right

Choosing a path is scary, trying something new and trying not to fail is nonsense.
The other day I was talking with my friend  and he said
"even after you do something and it doesn't work out or last long, you look at it and be like 'but I had a good time even though it was not for me'
I have been caught up in the thoughts of failures, not choosing the right path, but things are all right and all wrong at the same time.

Eventually we all have things that we need left in our hands

You can ask for money, you can ask for time, you can ask for something and don't feel like you don't have it right now.
But I believe that, at the end of the day, things we all need will be left in our hands. Something that I feel like I am struggling a lot to "figure out" is the priorities. I still am not sure what is my first priority and of course it keeps changing but what is the first priority for now?  

No body gets everything, perfection isn't having everything

I doubt if it is even powerful to say this in a kind of comparison, but we know what we have because we know the people who don't have what we have and people who do have what we have. So hopefully this sentence puts you at peace, because it did for me.

If something is missing, we just need to try to gain them

This is something that I keep telling myself, to be brave enough to take the leap of things.
What do you think is missing in your life?
… I have tons.
But I want to keep believing it is part of life that I should enjoy.
As we think we are missing something, it may look very content from the outside, too.

My favorite words recently is
Giving up on greener grasses 🤭　

Thank you all for reading x
See you sooooooooon 💛