臨終

2019.12.31　C97頒布　『トラウマコンピレーション』より
作詞作曲：虎落ブエ
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気がつけば一人きりだ　頭の中で
折れ曲がった釘に浮いた錆を撫でている
不安定な手慰みが熱を持っただけで
ドラマなんてものじゃないさ
石を枕の死出の旅路は

溶け落ちるまでは飛べる
そうだろう　蝋細工の羽
繋がれた体だと知りながら

血の滲んだ筆の先が紙を駆けていく

夜明け前の大通りを
我が物顔で歩こう
陽が落ちても冬が来ても
散らない花であることを

溶け落ちるまでは飛べる
そうだろう　蝋細工の羽
目が覚めるまでは飛べる
そうだろう　蝶になる夢
縛られた体だと知りながら
今だけの命だと知りながら

歌いながら　祈りながら
咽びながら　叫びながら
濁りながら　迷いながら
沈みながら　歌いながら


[English translation]
Rinjuu (Dying Hours)

I keep finding myself alone inside my own head
Caressing a crooked nail covered with rust
It's only an innocent play that happens to be my passion
It's no drama after all
This journey through life, and to death

Tell me I can fly
On the wings made of wax until they melt
While I know I'm chained to the earth

My pen writes in the ink of blood
As I watch it run across the paper

Silent boulevard awaiting the dawn
I will walk tall and proud
In the dark of night and the cold of winter
Like a flower that never dies

Tell me I can fly
On the wings made of wax until they melt
Tell me I can fly
In the dream of being a butterfly until I wake up
While I know I'm bound to the reality
While I know I'm only here for now

As I sing, I pray
As I weep, I scream
As I doubt, I stray
As I fall, I sing

[Roma-ji lyrics]
Ki ga tsukeba hitorikiri da, atama no naka de
Oremagatta kugi ni uita sabi o nadete iru
Fuantei na tenagusami ga netsu o motta dake de
Dorama nante mono ja naisa
Ishi o makura no shide no tabiji wa

Toke ochiru made wa toberu
Sodaro rozaiku no hane
Tsunagareta karada dato shirinagara

Chi no nijinda fude no saki ga
Kami o kakete iku

Toke ochiru made wa toberu
Sodaro rozaiku no hane
Me ga sameru made wa toberu
Sodaro cho ni naru yume
Shibarareta karada dato shirinagara
Ima dake no inochi dato shirinagara

Utainagara, inorinagara
Musebinagara, sakebinagara
Nigorinagara, mayoinagara
Shizuminagara, utainagara