Random thoughts

I was writing my random thought before this but I didn’t save it and it’s gone. I can’t explain this feeling. Something sad, hopeless.
These days, I can’t help thinking my life has been self-destroying. Doing nothing productive, can’t set a clear goal after graduation.
I’m lost.
Now I’m running hot bath and have got a some time without anything to do (rather, just escaping from those things?). Feeling Different from this usual night time, I’ve got a motivation to write some random thoughts. This is why I’m writing this, not considering the logical structure, proper choices of vocabulary, and so on. I’m sick of it now. Just spitting out rubbish in my stomach. I hope this can be a rational for this scattered writing.
Now, the sound of running water is ceasing. Maybe it’s time for me to relax. Actually I have a driving course from tomorrow unfortunately and, as you know, I don’t wanna step into it. But the reality is out of my expectation. Yuck.
Taking a bath and try to get cleaned for coming hell-like situation.