“Packing”

“Packing”

I started packing about two weeks ago,  
and need tips and mental health advice.  

It’s an extremely tough question for me.

I have struggled to look for who is safe to turn to.

But I slowly started to ask questions in my communities,  
got supportive responses,  
and empowered.

Also, I didn’t expect to be the kind of transmasc who needs a packer,  
so I’m struggling with my own acceptance of who I am.

Sometimes, I touch it, and think,  
“This should have been there,”  
and I cry,  
feeling like it has returned to me.

I am still struggling to know  
who I am  
and where my destination is.  

What kind of person I want to be,  
or how to survive in this world.

How to heal myself,  
and my soulmates,  
or my synchros,  
or my people,  
or my communities,  
or this hell world.

For survival,
for stopping inter generational trauma,
for our future.