“Trans Woman Wannabes”

“Trans Woman Wannabes”

Since I was a child,  
I have loved New Half,  
Trans Woman Dancers or Strippers, and been interested in transgender issues.  
I even became a scholar in transgender studies.  

Their choices were impossible for me.  

A man suffering from wanting to be a woman.  

I had no choice but to live as a woman.  
I was incredibly envious.  

Most envious is their masculinized bodies that they can't hide,  
no matter how hard they try.  

I know too well how much they suffer.  

The more they envied me,  
the more I suffered.  

I was disturbed.  

An unattainable love.  
Wannabe a trans woman.