trying out note .. random rants about life

(2021) I have been doing my best! Even though most of the time I don't like what I do. I want to chase my passion, I want to chase what I really love. But sadly, I don't have a clear goal of what I really want to achieve. I want to do a lot of things, like doing my own business (related to design, photos, music). I am also saving hard so I can pursue my dream of going to Japan. 

Sometimes, I feel that what I'm doing is also negative because it also affects my social life, I spend most of my time working 9-5 and spending my time playing guitar and doing music at nights, the same goes for my weekends. I'm not able to go to places as well to meet my friends (I'm typing this during the pandemic) I also can't go to events to meet new friends and socialize. Sometimes I wonder if romance will still come to me with what I am doing today lol. 

I became less sociable with this kind of lifestyle, I became more distant to people, but I'm not going to lie, I love this lifestyle, even sometimes its not fulfilling; I don't earn by doing this and posting my stuff on Youtube. I love Japanese culture especially its music but only few friends appreciate what I like and share, most of them think its weird or I am weird, but isn't it the same with people getting crazy over K-pop / K -drama culture? Who knows lol

I love Japanese Music because of its uniqueness in sound and also the music itself. But sadly, only few people appreciate it!: (I'm the type of person who really gets crazy passionate on the things I love and I will really pour myself to get the things done until I'm done with it, and also gets totally lazy if I don't like something lol. 

Today, I have been working as an Architect / Designer, I don't necessarily dislike this line of job, but I know that I want to do other things as well! Music is my first love, design is second! 

thank you for taking time to read this, im trying out this app, looks fun haha

-Jits