This is my first note

So the time for me to start using this has finally come. I am the kind of person who can feel a lot of enthusiasm for something at first, but such enthusiasm tends to fade away as days pass by without doing anything, or sometimes I just fantasize about starting a project and the ways to bring it to reality but without even giving a first step. Hence, before that happens, I think the first thing to do is making a short introduction of who I am and what I am doing here.

I am a 3X-year-old man who came from a country that most of people I come across with know very little about, and that is mostly football (sorry American fellas, it's "football" for me, not soccer), drugs and violence.  I have been living in this place for a bit more than 2 years that have passed by in a blink of an eye, but looking back, a lot has happened so far and there are still more things to experience and lessons to be learned, even if my time in these lands remains short. I dared to come at an age when most of my peers are already settling down and looking for stability, so, "how come a grown-up in his 3Xs has the guts to travel across the globe in search of adventures?" you may ask. A few years ago, I found an interesting concept in an historical fiction novel set in Sengoku Period (戦国時代). This concept is  Musha Shugyō (武者修行), which in short is defined as the pilgrimage that a Samurai warrior begins by abandoning his life of comfort and the protection of the circle it belongs to with the purpose of honing his skills, while living a modest and ascetic life. Having said that, I can say I intend to become a 21st-Century Shugyōsha (修行者) in search of some sort of enlightenment.

During the last few weeks in the middle of this crazy journey, I went through a very heavy emotional turmoil that made me reconsider many things I was taking for granted. And while going through this maelstrom of negative emotions, confusion and overthinking, I got assisted by another, more experienced Shugyōsha; who helped me to reframe and control my thoughts and convinced me to start writing or expressing somehow what I was keeping in my mind only for myself. To be honest, I always wanted to write and share some "piece of mind" in an attempt to achieve some "peace of mind". However, the thought always came to me "what if it becomes boring?", "what if I don't have anything interesting to say and no one cares?". Then this person told me that the only way to go through pain and learn from it is by sharing it with others, for when keeping it inside for too long may result in some sort of slow and unconscious self destruction process.

So, here I am. I am not sure who is willing to read these lines or who even cares. But at least I can use this space to express my thoughts and let my restless mind run wild once in a while as I continue with my pilgrimage, not only across this lands but also within myself. Maybe in the middle of this apparently meaningless exercise I might, little by little, find the answers I have long been looking for.

"The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step."
Lao Tzu




この記事が気に入ったらサポートをしてみませんか?