Step by Step

I woke up today and vomited, slept a little, and vomited again. Well, I felt really good for the past few days and then there is today, when I just feel so lethargic and completely limp. I think the healing process is a step by step thing; the ratio of the good days slowly take over the bad days, hopefully.

Today, I'd like to introduce to you my favorite singer, James Bay, and my favorite song from him, "Slide".

Slide

[Verse 1]
From the hot strobe lights and the spiked punch bliss
ストロボライトの中で、パンチを封じた至福

And the long walks home in the dark we'll miss
俺らが懐かしく思う長い家への帰り道

Nobody teaches you how to reminisce
誰も思い出にふける方法なんで教えてくれない

Nobody teaches you to hurt like this
誰もこんな風に傷つくことは教えてくれない

[Chorus]
Then we slide into the arms of someone else
Yeah, we slide into the arms of someone else
そして俺たちは誰か違う人の腕の中に陥るんだ

[Verse 2]
No more coked up, broke, nocturnal kids
もうコケインはしないし、貧乏も、夜行性もやめた

Was that ever even us? Do we know what we missed?
俺たちってそんなんだった？何が寂しいか分かってる？

Nobody teaches you how to win big
誰も大きく勝つ方法なんて教えてくれないよ

Nobody said there's no reverse on this
これに逆があるとは誰も言ってなかったよ

[Chorus]
Then we slide into the arms of someone else
Yeah, we slide into the arms of someone else
そして俺たちは誰か違う人の腕の中に陥るんだ

In disguise, we get a little better at controlling ourselves around midnight
変装して、１２時あたりで俺たち自身コントロールの仕方がよくなるんだ

Then we slide into the arms of someone else
そして俺たちは誰か違う人の腕の中に陥るんだ

[Bridge]
Nobody wants to, nobody wants to
Nobody wants to, nobody wants to
誰も望んでいないよ

Nobody wants to wake up alone
誰も一人で起きたくないよ

[Chorus]
Then we slide into the arms of someone else
Yeah, we slide into the arms of someone else
そして俺たちは誰か違う人の腕の中に陥るんだ

In disguise, we get a little better at controlling ourselves around midnight
変装して、１２時あたりで俺たち自身コントロールの仕方がよくなるんだ

Then we slide into the arms of someone else
そして俺たちは誰か違う人の腕の中に陥るんだ

What I love about this song is the poem that is narrated at the end of the song. It's a poem by Allen Ginsberg, and it's called "Song".

The weight of the world
is love.
Under the burden
of solitude,
under the burden
of dissatisfaction

the weight,
the weight we carry
is love.

And so, must rest in the arms of love at last
Must rest in the arms of love.

This truly shows love as two-sided; it could bring great joy and euphoria, but at the same time, can be such a burden as it can be the cause of great pain and suffering. Nonetheless, we are destined to love and to be loved, and there is no escape from love.

Having said that, I really miss my boyfriend. (If you're reading this, yes, I miss you a lot!) It is quite unexplainable in words how much I miss his everything.