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This week has been freaking hectic and awful. My senior manager told me like "that's it?!" mentioning how slow I get tasks done or maybe (it looked like) I was in sabotage.
With that my senior didn't really teach me how to do my tasks, just because he/she just got promoted to senior and did not really know about the client,
dude I cried after work. It was Tuesday I believe.
I was going to call my girl friend at first, complaining how miserable I was today at work, but I ended up with not calling her. I thought she won't be able to handle it, but more importantly, she does not have to. She has her own life, and I don't want to bother her. Plus, she is just like other people. Not blame on her though, she wasn't the right person at the moment.
Instead, I called my home. I called my grandma.
I did call wrong number a couple of time, because it's been a while to call home. But eventually got the right number so I waited, like a 30 seconds.
I knew she takes a quite time to stand up or even move. She is old.
Voice that I am familiar with. She noticed in a second, that the guy over phone was her grandson, me.
「あら〇〇ちゃんか!元気にしてる?お仕事がんばってる?お父さんとお母さん仕事にいってるよ」
I knew it. That's why I call at night. I knew there was only you in my home with the cutest dog in this universe,ふうちゃん。
I kept talking her as if I am doing well, trying to hide the fact, that I was crying.
I needed to talk to her kind of loudly, but I don't fucking care.
It was about 1 minute and 30 seconds.
I was content, satisfied, and relieved from some strong strong pressure that I have been feeling from last week.
I bet she is the only god damn human being who can make me so within 90 seconds.
Damn, I wanna fucking go home. I miss home so fucking bad.
Someday, one day, with a bit vivid windy mooring, I will be home. Not sure if they would be still there, but you know. I'll be fine with it. I am used to be alone. Good at being lonely.
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