spontaneous writing [20220831]

I think I have learned how to spend a whole day recently.  Until last month, I didn't know what to do when I don't have any plans in a whole day.  I don't like doing any productive activities like studying but I don't like just lying on a couch and watching TV either.  I'm too lazy to study but I'm too impatient to do nothing.  

A few weeks ago I didn't like staying at home and doing nothing anymore, so I searched for some new job.  I'll start working 5 days a week in 2 weeks, and now I feel like doing nothing.  

Yesterday and today, I really loved doing nothing.  I have a list of what I like to do.  I had a look at that list and started to do one of them.  It's to look for an inspiration of fashion.  And it worked.  I found a French influencer woman and I loved her style.  I spend almost 3 or 4 hours looking at her instagram.  Now I'm really enjoying doing something not productive but just fun.  I think it's such an important feeling.  I feel healthy. 

It's essential that you know what makes you fun.  I have watched a TED Talks about "having fun", so I think I'm having my own opinion about it.  Fun is not an activity, it's a feeling.  I think it's important to ask yourself what makes you fun and if your soul is having fun.  I want to prioritize "having fun" in my life.  I don't want to forget how it feels even though I start working again.