August 20th

I am currently feeling like English is overflowing from my head.  Luckily, I have found some opportunity to speak English, and I noticed that I really like speaking English.  I even think that my personality changes when I speak English.  When I speak Japanese, I don't even like having conversation with people.  I even hate people who tells me unnecessary things.  When I speak English, I love speaking with people and telling them about me.  I get to be interested in the others and to even feel confident, when I speak English.

I wonder why it happens even though I grew up in Japan and was raised by Japanese parents.  I also want to know how I can make the most of this character of me.

When I was working at a hospital, I didn't have a chance to speak English with anyone, but I sometimes talked to myself in English.  I just did it when I was alone at my room.  Now I got some chance to talk to someone in English, my words in English started to overflow.  I have so many things that I want to tell somebody in English, that I get too exited and I can't even sleep at night.  I felt the same way when I was at high school and had plenty of chance to speak English.  I even thought about majoring in language or English literature at university at that time.  To deal with that excitement at night, I, as a high school student, found a good way.  It was to write English diary.  It makes my thoughts in my head organized.  I can get calm through writing.  I feel exactly the same way right now.  It is amazing to relieve my personality as a person who speaks English.  I feel like I met new me.