spontaneous writing [20220904]

 This morning I watched TV documentary programs.  One of them was about the life of people who are living in Ukraine, and the other was about people living in Italy.  When I can not find any interesting programs on TV, I like to watch BS programs.  I found there was a documentary program about Ukraine going on BS NHK, so I decided to watch it.  I liked the program and the next program was baseball game.  I don't like watching baseball so I changed the channel.  I found a program like a travel program which was about Italy so I decided to watch that then.  

When I watch a travel program,  I often forget that it is a foreign country.  I feel like the life of local people is not so different among countries.  But I also thinks that it is just what I feel when I'm watching TV.  If I travel the country by myself, it's going to be really different.  

On that program I watched, they featured a woman in Italy.  She was 49.  There was a subtitle of telling you she was 49.  I thought it was one of the biggest difference of real trip and a travel program.  You see many local people but you never know how old they are.  Especially women don't tell you how old they are.  You need to just assume their age and then you will realize that age doesn't matter.

When I was a high school student, I really wanted to travel abroad.  I was feeling like I was born on the earth, not only Japan.  I took a trip in Vietnam alone when I was 20.  It was an amazing experience and I loved it.  I also took a trip to the UK, Bali, Taiwan and  Seattle.  After that I thought it's already enough.  I thought I already traveled a lot and I was not  hoping to travel anymore.   Actually I don't like traveling just for sight seeing.  I rather like to make friends with local people. And for that, I think you need a purpose of the trip, because the local people will ask you why you come to their country.  When I was 20, I came up with the idea that I need a purpose of traveling.  I stopped just hoping to travel.  I started to seek what I do in my life and who I am.  
 
I know most of the people use traveling as a tool of seeking these things.  But I rather wanted to seek who I am in my local community and then see the outside world.  I also wanted to experience nursing in Japan.  

Now I feel like I want to travel again.