06. sometimes...

it's getting colder recently and i feel "winter" stronger…
every year i struggle with temperature in the early morning. (esp last year cuz i usually got up at 5 a.m. just to study and went to bed around 1 a.m.
← make sence not to grow my height))))
but fortunatelly i was admitted to enter uni and i avoid taking morning class(1st and 2nd period), and i can manage my sleepiness.(still lazy….though) anyway, i think i could manage it but i read the book about getting up in early morning and built morning routine. and that idea make sence to me (actually, i feel i can manage everything better when i got up early in the morning last year)
so i made this year's aspiration.(now you get it 😙) that is to wake up early in the morning and build my morning routine!!
i plan to spend those times on listening to my favorite music at first (it's necessary to give me some reward at first, right??) and enjoy morning atmosphere and so on…

and i just want to write down to sort out my feeling, my pet (bird) died recently (he was more than 100 years old in human age) to be honest i couldn't say him good bye when he was gone because i had a class at that time. and i heard it from my mom when i rode a train to go home. i know its coming someday near the future but i didn't think that is now. so i feel a great amount of sorrow from that time and i tried to overcome it for days but it's hard to get out from sorrow. because i just love him soooooo much. we lived together for about 14 years or so, and he was so shy and scared of human at first. but i spend more time with him and sleep with him when earthquake happened or typhoon hit japan in case of emergency and he can feel safe.
and then gradually he get his mind open and became more emortionally eventhough he is a bird literally. so i feel like i lost one of my siblings or my boyfriend.

when taking photos of him he always come closer to my camera and behave as if he is a celebrity…

anyway the fact is that i love him so much and i wish he is doing well in somewhere and i still love him and i love him forever. and i feel him in my mind, without saying that i have tons of picture of him.
and i'm still so sad and i think i can't get over from it but i try to make me enjoy daily life. because this semester is going to end by the end of Jan, there is no time to feel dipressed.

he sometime sleep like this form, so adrable

and i just want to say that i want you(yes you!!) to care about people, pets around you more, and to think it more precious to spend time with them happily.  it' s too late to notice this fact after losing your significant others.
so please enjoy the time spending with them!
and i love you,my bird,Coco!!

he is satisfied with riding on my foot and goofing around