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Toast to Life 43 (To Write up Will)

(Dear English readers, the blog is based on my Will written on July 23rd, 2019 at the time of my receiving a diagnose in Tokyo of a colorectal cancer. It was for the first time in my life, and upon the news flew back to Singapore leaving behind the rest of my family in Japan, who would have spent their time for sight-seeing. The day back home, I remember lying on my bed ay home in Singapore, extremely nervous, and concerned about my family after my could-be passing-away for the cancer.)

In 2022 as a New Year's lesson, I and my wife engaged a minor talk over what to attain this year. We then have come to agree with "writing up Wills", in a case of either of us passing-away in future.  A Will means "to write what you can leave now for your family." Life insurance, deposits, stocks, reserves, etc, etc. It has record-keeping purpose so that the family left behind will not get lost what to do. Such as "insurance is here", "deposits are there", are wondering in my head while this blog writing, but I am not sure when it can be attained.  

The word "Will" reminds me of what I wrote on my bed in Singapore in 2019, when I was diagnosed of a colorectal cancer (the opening photo above is a part of it). Leaning back against the wall, threw out my feet into the bed, literally put the laptop on my laps and wrote it in three-straight nights. Turning to my right side on the bed, which was then my wife's place.

It was the second year in a row, following my wife's breast cancer in 2018. I felt like, a sense of crisis, or "family collapse" being imminent. To me then,  I thought that way. The Will is still sitting at my laptop, the device that is close falling apart (made in 2013), and spans only three pages in A4.

Reading now today, the Will itself sounds tragic. I would have thought that way today like the 2019 Will. The stories included were of Yuko Fujii, a judoka who was featured in the previous blog, saying "a strong will brings luck" (not "luck brings you better win", a Japanese famous saying), and the attending MD in Singapore said to me "this is Cure-able!", the phrase that me me shout out of half-joy and half-skepticism. 

On top, to my surprise, I hinted in the Will a scenario of changing the family/ profit structure. Today, our family history is surprisingly following the suite. 

My progress today is slow, and for the excuse, I am closing this issue by hanging up a photo from my Kyoto trip in October 2015. 

Kinugasa-jizo-in, Kyoto taken in Oct. 2015

(To be continued)