I've decided to make a diary in English.

I've decided to make a diary in English because I really need to improve my English so bad.

Since I've moved to New Zealand, I've been having so many emotions and feeling. Especially lately I'm struggling with language problem.
It comes up on mind when basically I hang out with my friends or flatmates or at work place.
It really makes me down sometimes because I can't express something what I'm really trying to tell them as a Japanese language. 
It actually really sucks but that's the real situation right now.
I know I'm still in progress and I shouldn't have to blame myself, but I feel like when this situation comes up to me,I feel like I'm empty and useful person.