①Moving forward

Hi ! First time writing this. Don't know why, but just felt like it. Before I answer to why I chose this title, let me introduce myself.
  To those who dont know me, my name is Shunsuke. I lived in the U.S. for about 10years, moved to Tokyo and currently in Hiroshima. I
am a sales in the F & B industry and finishing my 1st year. I love chocolate, hamburgers, and music. 

  Why "Moving Forward". The reason why is because I actually felt alive today.
  For the past several months, I was struggling with my job, life, and everything. After graduating college in March, 2023, I moved from Tokyo to Hiroshima for my job. It was actually my first time living alone away from my parents. At first I thought everything would go fine. Then, I found myself caught up in my job and feeling uncomfortable at all times. I couldnt sleep well, and were always complianing at my current situation. I didnt have any space except my job.
I was also in a  long distant relationship. Now you may have noticed where this is going. Yes, we broke up. I didnt have any room in my heart to care, because of my change in life. Maybe there were more reasons that couldve been mentioned, but I do think that this is the main reason and I screwed it up. It really broke me, because the relationship was really good when it was. She was actually the only person that I opened my heart to. I did the best I could so I dont regret it and I wish her the best. I know that the answer is No, but sometimes I still wonder if things havent gone wrong, would the results differ? 
  It was not only the heartbreak that made me feel unalive but the work and my goals shattered. I didnt know what I wanted to do, and whats worth the living. I know I chose this path, but where am I? Thats the kind of feeling I have had for quite a while. Now I have a few dreams that I want to pursue, so I'll try my best and find myself again.
  The hardest part is that we have to keep moving on. We have to live our lives and change ourselves in order to change our surroundings. 
There were many things that I learned in the past few months. I've learned that we have to take care of ourselves and be the person who we truly are. This I noticed was the important lesson for me. I didnt notice this because I moved to Japan and people tend to blend in with each other. I had the mind that I had to blend in too, but as we blend in, sometimes we forget who we truly are and let ourselves blend in because thats more easy to do then to be ourselves.People change and thats normal, but we cant forget who we are. We have to live our lives. Same goes for relationships, and we have to maintain ourselves in order to prevent becoming in a toxic relationship.
  Now that I know, I can move forward, but where would this lead me to? Going to find out.

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