25-5-24 Diary

Yesterday, I was supposed to call a friend, but she was already tired because before she call me after having a drink with her colleagues. When I started to call her, her voice already sounded sleepy. So I thought she wouldn't take me seriously when I called her, so I suggested she go to bed early. In the end, the call only lasted 15 minutes. That day I studied English as usual. However, I have been thinking seriously about what to do next for some time now. I haven't come up with any good ideas yet. This morning, I thought about it from different angles and tried to be honest with myself. I want to be with him more. But at the same time, I understand that I shouldn't make the decision because of him. My sister likes her boyfriend. But actually, he doesn't like her anymore. But my sister still wants to be with him and she is trying to fix their relationship because she hopes he will change his mind. I couldn't understand her feelings. I just pretended that I wasn't interested in him anymore. I can't give up on him either, so I'm thinking of going back to a European country to be with him more. I was just looking for a rational reason to stay in a European country. I didn't want to stay here for him.