April 10-2

When I went to see a documentary about a musician who was mostly active in the early 70s, I just couldn’t sit through it because it was too boring.

As a kid, I used to walk down this sketchy street where this scary dog would always bark at me, but one day, I totally forgot about the dog. Out of the blue, it just popped out and got really close, scaring heck out of me, and I ran away as the dog started barking. I glanced back at the dog, which was still staring at me. I walked confidently away, but it was seriously freaky moment. The other night, while having a night in and watching a mystery show, this childhood memory suddenly came to mind.

I've been slogging away through these boring days for many years, trying extremely hard to find something meaningful. Occasionally, I feel like I'm searching for a needle in a haystack.If someone were to see me, they might say I seem a bit off or distracted, and I would gaze levelly at them.

I recently had a job interview with a company that some people consider glamorous to work for. Some people have tried to impress me with superficial things, but I've often found myself thinking, "Am I supposed to be impressed?" It's appalling how an individual can be both shallow and ignorant at the same time.