My testimony

The scent of autumn began to waft
A marginal village deep in the mountains of Fukuoka. While I was praying alone, God's love fell on me.

That was in September 2022.

This is the story until I met and believed in the real God.
And God is Jesus Christ and all I am.

I was born in Tokyo and grew up in there.When I was child who didn't have much trouble because I felt like I could see through something.I knew people would be happy if I did this, and even though I was young, I could see through people naturally.

From birth, I felt that my life was burdened with something.
When I think about it now, I feel that it came from the heavy responsibility of respect for those blue skies, trees and magnificent nature and a painful sense of existence of death and destruction.

When I realized, I began to think seriously about what would happen if I died.Whether I asked my parents or someone else, I knew that nobody knew.
for no one had ever died.
6 years old. When I became an elementary school student
But the fear of dying, the fear of dying loved ones
Even though humans are supposed to die, I was overwhelmed by the fleetingness of this living life.I didn't understand why I needed to go to school or why I needed to work hard for the future.
From this time on, it was a great sense of emptiness that dominated my life.

The way I could escape from emptiness was through love.
The feeling of love and love was the only way to overcome emptiness.
When I talk to a kind and gentle girl, I forget the time.A pure smile calmed me from the bottom of my heart, and at that time I was able to forget the emptiness.

But before I knew it, my life would fall in love with people like idols to escape emptiness.

When I was a student, I only pursued loving people seriously.I lived thinking about what love is.
I had the Ten Commandments engraved on me even though I hadn't been taught by anyone since I was a child.
You should not have sexual relations unless you are married to the opposite sex.I took it for granted.
However, when I became a university student, people who had those values began to be ridiculed as strange.
I also began to wonder if the chaste values I had in me were correct as I went along with other people.

Serious love means more time to think about love and respect for the other person.

I was in my third year of college.There was a junior in college who was as beautiful as snow.When I look at her, the scenery looks blurry.It looks like an impressionist painting.for she saw not only beauty on the outside, but also a delicate love like glasswork on the inside, and a tender love like sunlight through a tree.

I became friends with that woman along with my friend.
When I talked to her, the atmosphere I felt was right.But at the same time she felt hurt and pain in her heart.
If you're sensitive, you have a lot of pain that people around you don't understand.I felt that loneliness and loneliness from her.

And after a while
I found out that she and her friends were having sexual relations.My friend treated her as one of his sexual partners.

I told my friend that she was not a good person to treat him like that, and got angry and broke off the relationship.

Then I telephoned her.

I said I want you to take better care of yourself, your body and mind.

She was weeping that she didn't mean this.Oh, I was relieved that the person I loved was a beautiful person.

From there, I went out with her every day.

But for a while she said that I am not as pure as you think and she left.

I can't help people who love me.What's more, they can't even be together.

Besides, it's presumptuous of me to help others, and I'm falling apart.
I was so corrupt that my emotions froze and I didn't even know what I was doing.

Here I tasted my heart falling apart.
Just as I thought I would go to a psychiatrist to rebuild myself, I started studying psychology.

When you were a child, you had the problem of dying, and whether you fall in love or depend on your loved one, that person will eventually die.

The human problem is the worry of death.If you don't overcome this, happiness won't come.
And only those who overcome this can bring salvation to others.

So I took a leave of absence from university and started practicing at a temple.

So I started meditation training.

Originally, I was a person with a strong spiritual sense from an early age, but I became more spiritual.
increasingly-spiritual

I became a disciple of a world leader,
As if breaking the dojo, he walked from place to place and taught many lessons.

For a wonder the more I practice, the more I care about Jesus.

From an early age, Jesus alone had a sense of security.

However I have done all kinds of spiritual work, from time to time.I have experienced the fields of Buddhism and Yoga New Age in an extremely experiential way.

However, the emptiness cannot be overcome.

After entering iriomotejima Island, I tried to die once during Zen meditation.
I feel my body's activities quiet and stop.
The light fell when I could taste death at this rate.

The trees, birds, cats, and loved ones smile flowed like running lights.

This world is full of love, so why do you want to throw it away?
Turn around.

I felt that pity.

I couldn't help but wonder what that experience was.

Then I quit my training.

And I camped in the jungles of iriomotejima, praising this magnificent nature and the existence of God.
Then I decided to travel around the country as a backpacker.

While traveling to various places in Japan, I arrived at Fukuoka.The money was already 20,000 yen for all my money,
I had no place to stay, no acquaintance,

I can see a sign near Ohori Park.

Matthew 11:28
come to me.all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

When I saw the sign of the church, I felt like entering the chapel.
The overwhelming sacred atmosphere of the chapel is well understood because it was practiced to sharpen the senses.

Then I realized that God's existence and Jesus Christ were resurrected and still alive.

So he received a copy of the New Testament and decided to read it.It is the end of 2021.

When I prayed to God, I found a place to live, was blessed with friends, and made friends to help each other's lives, so I could live a fulfilling life.

From here God has done his work thoroughly to call me.

There were several events, but two big ones.

the teaching of the good Samaritan,
There was a person sleeping on a bench at midnight in the guest house where I live.

I thought she was homeless, but she was an old grandmother.I saw for the first time a dying man.
Then a good Samaritan crossed my mind and I was able to help her.
Without the owner's permission, they put them inside the guest house, cooked rice, and gave them clothes.Jesus was with me, and I knew everything about what to do.
Grandma was abused by her daughter and kicked out.
God thought I would help her and carried her to the bench.
It was a great pleasure to know how Jesus helped others as he clearly wanted to live in response to the love of God who trusted him.

A few months later, a friend who was trying to do an educational business with him became depressed.psychologically

I entered the chapel together, thinking that I might get better if I went to church.
Then you can see that his face is changing in no time.After leaving the chapel, I saw a special sunset　as if the world were welcoming them.

And my friend was able to return to work.

At that moment a word pierced me.Matthew16:23
Get behind me ,Satan, you are a hindrance to me. for you are not setting your mind on the things of God,but on the things of man.

I've tried to save some people in my life.But he had never been able to save them.My friend, who suffered from depression this time, didn't get any better with psychological advice.But when I entered the chapel and was blessed, I was healed.
Man cannot save man.
Only God can save people.I realized that.

And I wanted to face this God who would save my loved ones seriously.
Then, he stayed deep in the mountains of Yame City's marginal settlement and continued his life of just reading the Bible while helping with guest houses.

Then, reading the Bible makes my head light.A refreshing mint-like wind flows in.The air I felt in the chapel flows through my head.

It seemed to me that the other spiritual learning I had done had prevented the sacred from entering my mind.

and the second month of his life in the mountains,
The Romans' letters 8:20 and creatures are vain.
This one theory covered everything up.
The sun that I have worshiped will eventually perish,
There is no point in worshiping what perishes.

Jesus is resurrected from death and has eternal life.
If you believe in Jesus, you can connect with eternity.
I repented and prayed that I believed in Jesus.

It was midnight that day.
I wake up feeling like my chest is bursting.I thought, "What's going on?" and left myself to calm down.

From the next morning, there is no emptiness anywhere in me.

baptism of the Holy Spirit fell.

It was the most beautiful moment of my life when the truth that I had long sought in me began to dwell in me and give my life to Jesus.