where are we going from here?

NOV 2023
Well, I have no fucking idea what is going on here at the apartment, maybe is just my fruteous mind. I just learned that my girls have scheduled to spent Christmas together at one of their boyfriends’ friends house. They agreed and were invited to spend Xmas together. I got excluded and they didn’t tell me, and even didn’t arrange for one of them to tell me. I might be watching too much Revenge, but I can’t stop but wonder….are they trying to say something without really saying it. 
I don’t know how to respond to that. I will not let my projections get the best of me, do I have to break the fourth wall to understand it?
I did make a bit of drama. I looked deep in one of their eyes and I didn’t see any depth. Maybe the universe is trying to say something. I should continue to do my shit, seclude and advance to a better state of space and companionship.
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