complicated

It's so complicated.
Maybe I change things complicating.
I think about same things again and again.

I saw a movie "A star is born".
It's famous for good actors and actresses like Bradley Cooper and Lady Gaga.
This story is about the girl who became a star.
By the way it's NOT the story about Lady Gaga.
According to end credit, it's a real story about another woman.
I forgot her name though.

A girl was a singer at a club and her voice fascinated the man, a super celebrity singer.

Then they know each other and generally fell in love, made many songs and sang together everyday.
Ally, the name of the girl, became popular but their life changed worse.

He had a disease.
He couldn't stop drinking and becoming intoxicated with drugs.
And he lost himself.

Finally he suicided.
He couldn't stand how he was.
He thought he had no meaning to live.

"Ally would be happier if I die"

I am a huge fan of Lady Gaga.
I like her songs, of course, and also like how she lives.

She, and maybe many stars that are popular all over the world today, had thought "I should quit a show".
But they didn't.
They has kept trying and became a star.

To become an artist is very difficult.
Need energies to dreams and unbelievable efforts.

I'm not an artist but I can understand their conflict.
It's very tough to keep creating something for long time.
There is risks to be blamed, scolded, and deceived.
And then, there is no guarantee to be a star.

But they keep trying.

I want to be like that.
I wanna live such life.

"Tomorrow never knows."

Failures teach things more than Sucesses.
I need to think things simply and don't waste my time.