不安 / Don't worry

外国語学習の山のデカさに気づいたのもまた僕を挫けさせた原因なのかも知れない。数ヶ月で英語はいけるっしょ。などと。幼児の見積りだった。厳しい。厳しいが、日本の「善」などを書けるし読める事を忘れてはならない。

未来の自分に何となく期待できていた序盤、現在少し現実を見始める。肉体が恐らく水と不安で構成されている自分。今、元々の不安プラス未来への不安。胸が押し潰れそうになる時もある。不安と肉体とが闘う。闘っていく。

どれだけ決意してもレジュメが書けない。

今日もまた、決意し闘っていく。
世界をリスペクトしすぎてはならない。舐めていきたい。

I'm in despair. The reason for this was because I was disappointed in the difficulty of learning a foreign language.
I thought I would be able to learn English in a few months.
It's not that easy. I am a fool.

At the beginning, he had some expectations for his future self, but now he starts to see reality a little. My body is probably made up of water and anxiety. Now, the original anxiety plus anxiety about the future. There are times when my chest feels like it's going to be crushed. Anxiety and body fight. I will fight.

No matter how determined I am, I can't write a resume.

Today again, I am determined to fight. Don't respect the world too much.