I feel like

I will write this in English because I do feel more comfortable with English while speaking of something like this. And I do write it here instead of the other blogs I have because no-one knows me here. I do wanna share yet I don't want be known.

I don't know when exactly yet I experienced so many times similar situations. Recently, at one of the supermarkets, there was an old lady in front of me buying some food. When she wanted to pay them, it seemed like there were not enough money (which is like 1250 yen or so) in her S point card so she told the cashier to keep the stuff that she would withdraw money and come back. Silently I asked the cashier if it was okay I would pay her stuff and she could kindly tell her by saying "oh you had money on the card sorry that the machine did not work" or so.. But the cashier told me "it is okay she will withdraw money and come back". So I believed. When I went out I saw the old lady calling someone on the phone constantly - probably her son or daughter - I felt so sorry.

Recently similar but a worse situation happened infant of my eyes when I had only 110 yen with me at the super marker because I went there to buy only potato chips and it is like 30 secs away from my home. There was an old lady with only 1100 yen but the bag was around 3300 yen. So she had to choose some other stuff and left the others behind.. I felt very sorry that I did not have any money with me at that moment and felt worse when I saw her smiling and thanking as [良かった] after she was able to buy some 春巻きto eat.

Later while speaking with a friend who is an assistant prof at Osaka University engineering, he told me "unfortunately the retired people can only get 八万円 each month as a salary, this is why they have to work and so poor". I felt seriously very bad. I remember after each occasion I was not able to eat for days - literally.

Getting old is a merciless process. People are merciless to old people also. I sometimes see how the new generation in my country is very harsh to criticise old people. I don't like that kind of people and hope God or Kamisama or Life won't bring any of them to my life anytime.